OK, so I dallied with celibacy and it really didn't work.
I am addicted to sex. I know it, I guess I've always known it, I had my first experiences so young it has become part of my life and rather than fight it, I guess I need to accept it and try to adapt to it rather than the other way around.
I reached this conclusion because I bumped into Marcus and he took me for coffee and we had a chat and I was getting juiced up just watching his smooth black hands and hearing his soft voice purr. It was like I was in love again. Mad. I know he treats me OK, but it isn't a two way relationship, I kinda do all the giving and all the taking if you like, in a sexual way. Anyway he contacted me and begged me to come on holiday with him and the guys. They had a couple of apartments in Ayia Napa. I know it well coz I worked the bars there in my early twenties and spent a couple of summers spaced out, spreadeagled and fucked rotten. The joys of student life LOL
I was fed up with work, well, it was only a part time thing in a clothes shop, so I said yes and went on this holiday. I was one of two girls, the other was a Chinese girl who was in a strict 1-2-1 relationship withe her fella, which meant I had to fend off eight black guys. I didn't want it to be the same as always, but i think deep down, I was desperate for their cocks. About three days in they got me pissed up and when we got back to the apartment, I didn't object to their wandering hands and gave in to my basic urges and started sucking someones cock. It was like opening the flood gates and I was black fucked all night. It was one of the most intense sustained nights of fucking I think I've ever had.
The holiday became a blur of sunny beaches and bare back cock. I was even introduced to some Turkish guys and a very fit German (they were both white, well, the Turkish guys were that Middle Eastern look, which is unusual). The only other thing I managed to do was get my hair braided.
Anyway so on my return I moved out of Mums and back with Marcus and the guys.
We had a party to celebrate and I was triple cocked - one each hole - lovely.
At first I thought it was weird, being back servicing the guys and their mates, and I was a bit sad about it, but after a week or so I started to fall in love with the lifestyle again.
I don't have to do much. The boys said I won't need to work, just fuck, so I keep house for them and go to the gym (I don't pay, the owner is one of Marcus' mates and I suck his cock as a favour instead) and stay looking sweet and ready to eat LOL
Its been a lot of fun. The boys treat me very nice. So far it hasn't been as rough and nasty as before. I've never felt forced to fuck which I did sometimes before and they've bought me clothes and stuff. I even have my own room this time whereas before I slept with which ever one of the boys was fucking me.
They've organised treats. That's what they call it when I'm shared. I had two rampant days at Notting Hill, then it pissed down with rain and I was shared at a bachelor birthday party the other week. This weekend we're going to Brum for some black bare back bum fun. Should be cool.
I feel good again.
I have a smile.
My pussy is happy.
What more should I want ?
I know I'm a slut. I know I'm being used, but I'm enjoying it. At the moment, its fine and its all I want.