What does this have to do with sex, well of course its hard to be intimate when your self image is not that high. There should be a special place in hell for people like me who see a problem and refuse to fix it. I am no longer any one's spring chicken and you would think by now, I would have dealt with the situation.
I guess I told my self that when I get a girl, I would be extra motivated to deal with the problems. Now I am not saying I couldn't get a girl but I am definitely not going to be anyones top choice. So should I expect some one who I would consider hot to date some one beneath their range. Now surely a girl does not go by sexual prowess or looks alone. Some credit should be given to the opposite sex.
To paint them in that light is un-fair at the least. I think I spend too much time focusing on the negatives of my self that I can not actively sell what ever my positive qualities are. That needs to change, so I need to change my mind state. I mean people thats what it's really all about. Its a mental game and we need to realize this. We create life with our thoughts and our actions. My life has been shit and hell. How ever, I made that shit and that hell and I sank into it.
Now that's my fault and mine alone. If you want to get out of your own personal hell you will have to realize that as well. Its going to take guts, will power and perseverance to get out. It can be done, it starts with admitting you control life. Life doesn't fucking control you. Some things do happen out side your control but your always in control of how you respond. So from now on I am going to try and I encourage any one else to raise a huge middle finger to all the bullshit in your life.
Stick you head up and say no, never again will I let you stop me. I will not be stopped by bull shit or let it put my life in a state of hell.
God gave us the gift to create our worlds, and we need to realize that. It wont always be happy fun times but with positivity and courage we can make life a Heaven on earth.
Peace and Love,