Posted by Dani_California , Wed Aug 29, 2012 03:02 PM
On another note, an unwelcome visitor showed up at the house today. The asshole my grandmother used to live with. Luckily I'm off today so she didn't have to deal with him. He wanted to see her and I told him she wasn't coming outside to see him and that he should just leave the stuff he brought for her outside. So, he left her stuff and when he was leaving, he looked back and thought I'd feel bad. No, screw him. He put her in the hospital twice and almost killed her. He can live out on the streets for all I care. So, my grandmother and I brought her stuff into the house and he left.
I was freaking out today thinking about the future and trying to get everything I need to do in order. I know I need to drive and I've been working on that and today I tried to make an appointment but the earliest I could get in was possibly in October. I'm supposed to start this NA program in November but I've been thinking I could go in Feburary instead. That way, I could still have a couple months to work before going back to school and saving up some more money. I was talking to my boyfriend earlier and told him I just need to concentrate on one thing at a time. So right now, I'm concentrating on driving and then I'll think about school. I also think I'll mention something to my grandmother to see what she thinks. I'm not trying to put anything off but I've been so overwhelmed in the past couple years, I just need to concentrate on one thing. Driving and divorce are my top priorities at the moment. I want a future with my boyfriend and I'm determined to get out on my own again and do something I love. I guess that's all I have to say at the moment. For anyone who does read this, thanks.