Posted by HumanBreeder1973 , Mon Jul 18, 2011 01:55 PM
Anyhow, day 11 of my recovery and I am starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. My guess is the worst is over, at least as far as all the troubles I was having. Emotionally I feel better, more confident that this is going to work out fine. Physically, I have seen many of the stitches dissolve, still a few in and I'm sure some I can't see, but overall I can see progress and healing. So everyone who told me don't worry, everything will be ok, you just have to get past these next few days - you were right, I just couldn't accept it 'cause I didn't feel like that was true emotionally or physically. I apologize if I bit anyone's head off or said sarcastic things, it was the fear and pain talking.
I have also been having increasing numbers and strength of erections, which with the swelling are still uncomfortable and still only half there... but they're there. That alone is enough to make me relax some. I also have noticed however that my libido is in overdrive, I feel like I did when I hit puberty - random erections and lots of them, uncontrollably horny, and I can't do anything about it. That and I also have dry skin developing which I have read is also normal for the healing process, but damn if it doesn't itch like crazy! Anyway, it seems that stimulating myself to get erections and kind of keeping myself at that level for as long as I can stand it has helped the healing process significantly, which I find odd, but am glad of.
Another thing, and maybe again this is TMI, but the hell with it; today the pressure got to me too much and I was desperate to cum... well, I had read that it was safe to masturbate gently if you weren't bleeding or still totally stitched up, so I tried it... after many false starts and much head scratching to figure a method that would be safe and yet get me off, I did it... and let me tell you, cumming was the happiest moment of the last 11 days. :: cue the angelic chorus and the dancing forest animals and all that happy crap :: I'm used to cumming at least 2 to 3 times a day at my best, as I have said in a couple posts on the board, so not being able to cum was killing me Having done it, I wonder if it was the smartest thing to do, but I'm not hurting or anything, so I guess all in all it was the right thing to do for my well-being, regardless.
So in a few days time I see the doctor, hopefully I'll get some advice to straighten out the small bit of swelling I'm still dealing with, and a timetable or something so I know what to expect from here on in. Hell, I don't even need to refill the painkillers she gave me, been sticking to ibuprofin for the last 4 days.
And if any guys are reading this and have questions, shoot me a PM and I'd be glad to answer.
In any case, I'm emotionally and physically (at least a little) better than I was the other day, and getting better all the time.