I recently have been accused of cheating by my SO of nearly 8 years. My simple answer to him was that if he didn't know me by now, he would never know me. After this conversation I began to realize how little I cared about the current relationship I'm in...the constant push and pull, the annoyance I feel whenever he tries to "turn me on". (I see through superficial attemps..) He thinks that because I don't constantly crave his sexual attention and make an effort to gain his affection that I must not want him and that I must be seeking this elsewhere. It isn't true of course, not this time. A libra wants to be adored and doesn't like to constantly initiate, by the way.
I fear this will happen in all relationships, as it has in the past and still happens now. I am not good at making people feel happy, because I feel as though another person's happiness should not depend on my actions alone. Maybe I'm just picking the wrong sort of people..
On another note, marriage doesn't appeal to me at all. I used to think I wanted a husband, someone that cared deeply about me and my feelings, wanted the best of me at all times but if I'm unable to constantly do the same for another person, I'm the one placing expectation and whenever that is done it never ends up well. I can't imagine being binded to someone that might want to control me or my happiness, I don't like feeling trapped and restricted. To me, this is what marriage would hold. I've seen it too many times to believe it to be anything more. This being said, I know it isn't always the case...I know several happily married people. I just think this would be the outcome for me.
I don't know where I will end up or what my future will hold in relationships, but I'm slowly learning to be selfish when it comes to my needs. It just makes me wonder if I'm capable of being in love at all..