Well, I wanted to handle the situation tactfully, so instead of getting upset immediately and starting a fight, I got out of bed, walked over to his chair, leaned down and kissed him on the cheek, and whispered in his ear, "You don't have to download porn, you know," (and the second half of that sentence was going to be, "I can satisfy your every sexual desire," but I didn't get those words out), and I went downstairs to use the bathroom. He protested that he wasn't downloading porn, but Mr._C. doth protest too much because there's nothing else on Earth called Aletta Ocean besides the porn star. Besides, I almost positive that the browser tab was a torrent site, which is a download site.
We've talked about porn before, and this isn't the first time Mr._C. has looked at porn when I've been so easily accessible. I want to have a talk with Mr._C. about this again because it hurts my feelings. It's not the fact that he looks at porn that hurts me. I couldn't care less if he looks at porn when I'm not around - i.e. if I was at work or went on a trip to visit my mom or had a girls' night out or something like that. If I'm not there - if I'm not accessible at all - then Mr._C. can go to town with the porn and look at as much as he wants to. But when I'm literally right here in bed in the same room, I really want him to want to come to me FIRST before he'd choose to look at porn. When I'm right here, it's hard not to be hurt when he chooses to look at porn over sliding over to my side of the bed and rubbing me awake for sex. This is a very similar conversation that we've had more than once.
I just can't understand why. I mean, I'm accessible, available, and adventurous. Mr._C. and I have anal sex on a regular basis, and we've introduced toys to our sex life. I can't really see Mr._C. asking me to do something sexual that I wouldn't want to do or that I'd be turned off by, and I haven't made it a habit to turn him down for sex. In fact, I almost never turn him down for sex, and I'd say I've done it less than a handful of times in the whole time we've been together when I genuinely didn't feel well or when I knew I didn't have the energy to be a good partner or that I wouldn't have a good time. I've posted on this site - and recently, too! - about the fact that I think Mr._C. and I have a good - even great - sex life, and I still think that we do. We had an especially naughty weekend, and I want to tell you about that as well.
Mr._C. and I haven't had so much sex in such a short period of time in a long while, and we had a lot of fun. It started on Saturday night. We had sex twice with a short break in between the two sessions. During the break, Mr._C. continued to play with my nipples and kept me aroused for a second round.
On Sunday morning, we had sex again before breakfast. After breakfast, we returned upstairs and continued to have sex throughout the day. We even had sex in the middle of doing something else. We were playing a video game together, and I stood up and went over to the microwave to make us some more hot tea, and Mr._C. came up behind me, pulled his still-soft cock out of his pants, and gave me a hungry look. Then, I leaned over and rested my elbows on the counter while he fucked me from behind.
We had sex doggy-style standing up with me bent over the counter and the bed and with me on the bed on all fours. We had sex in missionary position with him kneeling between my legs. I had my feet flat on his chest, and he held my legs open by my ankles. At one point, he had me roll onto my side and keep my knees together (so I was sort of in the fetal position) while he knelt and entered me from behind.
In addition to having sex, Mr._C. fingered me and used my glass dildo on me. He used the dildo to fuck me hard and fast. I felt like my breasts got a ton of attention, and my nipples were sore. They were stuck being semi-hard before the weekend was over, and they were very sensitive.
I also sucked Mr._C's cock like I'd never get another chance. I sucked his cock on my knees on the floor while he stood over me. I sucked him while we were laying in bed, and I laid upside-down on the bed with my head hanging off the edge while he straddled my face and fucked my throat. He laid on the bed with his legs over the edge, and I gave him a blowjob while I knelt on the floor by the bed. I also sucked his cock while he sat in a chair with me kneeling between his feet on the floor. I gave him an especially wet blowjob on Saturday. I felt like a goddess of blowjobs, I swear. I swallowed a couple of times, and he fucked my tits and came on my breasts and gave me a facial. I was surprised when he turned on the camera and took a couple of pictures of me going down on him. I even tried to play with Mr._C.'s back door a little bit. It was very tentative on my part, and I wasn't sure how he'd react, so I very gently stroked and tickled around it while I was giving him a blowjob. (I'm still unsure about his reaction. He sort of seemed a little bit uncomfortable(?). I'm pretty sure he noticed what I was doing and squirmed a little bit, but he didn't try very hard to stop me, and he never tried to push me away. I'm definitely thinking about trying it again.)
It was a great time for both of us. We had sex until Mr._C. said that he didn't think he had any cum left.
The number one thing I wanted to do that we didn't do at all this weekend was to receive oral sex. Mr._C. didn't go down on me or lick my pussy once all weekend. He also didn't rim me once all weekend. The next time we have a naughty weekend like this, I definitely want the focus to be on orally pleasing me.
So back to Aletta Ocean. Why does Mr._C. need her - or any other porn star, for that matter - when this is the type of sex life we have? I mean, we are relatively adventurous and have sex in many different ways. Mr._C. is able to have sex with me whenever he wants to. I'm willing to fulfill his sexual fantasies. Nothing we do is really all that shocking or out of the ordinary, but it makes the two of us hot and leaves us feeling sexually satisfied. Well, I hope Mr._C. is sexually satisfied by me and our sex life. I think he is. Instead of staying in bed on a Sunday morning after sleeping through the night in a sex coma and suckling my nipples until I wake up, why would Mr._C. choose to leave our bed and look up porn to download on the Internet? I just don't understand his motivation.
I talked to a friend today. He knows that Mr._C. has a history of not opening up to me in this specific way - sharing his sexual fantasies or participating in writing erotic stories with me. My friend said to me, "What you have to remember is that it isn't about your [meaning my] failure to excite him[...]it's about his own inability to express himself," to which I responded, "I guess the reason it hurts my feelings is because I don't understand the difference[.]" Mr._C. and I are both feeling strained and stressed right now, and because a fight could come from discussing this non-deal-breaking issue, I'm going to let this incident/situation pass without saying anything for now. I want to talk about this in a non-confrontational way that reinforces our relationship, and I want this to be the last conversation we ever need to have about this topic. I want to be able to get through to him this time. I'll try to find the right time to bring it up.
I want to get your opinion now. When Mr._C. and I do talk about this, do you think it would be fair for me to ask Mr._C. to limit (not delete!) his porn collection that he has on his computer? I wouldn't be asking him to get rid of all of it, but maybe I'd ask him to keep only his five favorite porn movies and get rid of the rest. Would five full-length porn movies be enough for one man? He has probably around 20 or so right now and a mixed bag of pictures. I mean, five full-length movies means a lot of hours of porn, right? Would it be fair of me to ask that of Mr._C.? Above all, I want to be fair while helping Mr._C. make me feel better about his use of porn.
Edit: Well, Ms. Ocean has found her way into Mr._C.'s porn collection - regardless of my (admittedly minimal) effort(s) to reassure him that I believe I'm all the woman he needs and can physically satisfy his sexual needs myself. I don't mean to say that I'm a controlling woman by any stretch of the imagination. In fact, Mr._C. has told me more than once that I'm understanding and that he's glad we can talk things out because I'm willing to listen and compromise instead of just fighting. I gather that his previous engagement/relationship ended at least partially because his partner wasn't like me or at least didn't have those qualities that he values in me. I just mean that it seems my (I thought) gentle and (again - I thought) non-confrontational comment to him that morning might make a difference or at least plant the idea in his head that maybe I'm enough woman for him. I guess I was wrong.
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