I think the whole penis envy was spawned through the conception of the "male locker room". For most of us men this is the place where guys actually catch a glimpse of what other men are packing. Its been burned into our heads as youths that a bigger penis is better and when you finally see your piers in all thier glory that is when you notice that we are not piers nor are we all created equal. For as long as I can remember degrading another male as a youth revolved around being gay or sporting a tiny pecker, in either case it never felt good when you were the target of this type of ridicule. Its one thing when your being teased and there is zero facts based on this harrassment its a totally nother issue when the acusations are true.
Being of a smaller stature plays twisted games on a boy, your insecurity grows with time, you become self consious and can be ashamed of your short comings ( pun intended ). It was a very frightening experience pulling it out for the first time with a girl. Has she seen bigger ? How is it going to compare to any previous lover she has had ? Is she going to be turned off ? Is she really going to enjoy it ? These are the thoughts that run through ones head. Now maybe some of the larger guys feel this way aswell, who knows, but somehow I think these larger men know because at some point they too have seen what other men are packing and can see that they have been blessed and are above average of all the other cocks that they have seen.
One of the things that get tossed around especially after some form of a break up......"Screw you and your tiny pecker too". How many women have said this exact thing to a man ? So even though many girls say size doesn't matter it obviously does, it might not matter sexually but it matters mentally and that is why alot of women slam a man with that insult. I myself have been on the receiving end of such ridicule. It stings quite a bit, I mean its not my fault I was born this way, if there was anything that I could do to change it I would and have.
We have all seen and heard commercials, "Bigger is better" "Size does matter" "Gain two inches" etc etc etc... Now im not sure about the other guys but I know I myself have looked into several of these ads. Can they really give you more size ? For some reason I highly doubt it but I had to look into it. Now to try every method on the market one would go broke, these miracle pills cost money and there are many of them cliaming to make me a bigger man. Thankfully the internet was invented and allowed us to research these wonder drugs. After reading countless reviews you quickly realise that these ads are frauds. There is no wonder drug that will increase the size or your dick. It was through my research that I found out that there is a couple ways to increase the size of your member. The first one is the sergery, ouch ! No thanks, no one is going near my cock with a knife...pass. Next is the technique called Jelkin, it is a stretching exercise that helps gain some improvement but is a long drawn out process. ( who has time for such a lengthy commitment? ) And lastly there is the old fashion penis pump, wait, thats not going to work or is it ?
After giving up my quest for a larger penis and living with what god gave me I put that thought on the back burner. It wasn't until I was surfing YouPorn when I stumble across a video of a woman using a penis pump, I was intrigued. This penis pump that was thought to be a hoax was ballooning this girls pussy into abnormal proportion. This pussy was massive looking, i mean the pump actually worked. At that moment I knew I had to try it. I researched and researched, saw numerous before and after photo's to lose my skeptisim. That was it I had to buy one and try it out, so I did. The anticipation of its arival was imense, I could not wait to try it out and to see for myself if it really worked wonders or not. Well the package finally arived, I quickly grabbed it from the UPS driver and made a mad dash to my bedroom to give it a whirl. I opened the package and constructed the pump, it consisted of a tube, a hose, a sleeve and a hand pump with a pistol grip. After about 2-3 minutes of construction it was ready to be used. I grabbed the lube ( need lube so your dick dont get stuck in the tube ) and started to lather up. The thought alone of making my dick larger got me erect instantly, Im finally going to know what its like to be bigger. I entered the tube and started to pump, ah it felt great, my cock was throbbing already, I could see the veins starting to appear. As the suction worked its magic I could visually see my cock growing larger than it ever had before, I was amazed. After about 20 minutes or so I removed my now inflated cock from the tube and inspected it. Yup, it was bigger alright, felt heavy and everything. Just the feeling alone of the additional weight got me excited so I began to use it. needless to say I came very quickly, it was such a turn on to finally know what it felt like to be large and it felt great.
I know pumping is not for everyone, thats fine, but for me after living all those years in shame it just really boosts my confidence level up. I feel like a stallion in the bedroom now.I love the look in my wife eyes when she gazes at my cock after it has been pumped. Although she had never complained about my size in the past I can tell she really enjoys it more now. And if my wife is enjoying it then I am enjoying it too.
Well this was my first blog post, if you have any questions feel free to ask, and if you just want to comment and tell me im nuts feel free to do that too.
Thank you for reading.