I want a relationship, a good relationship, a fulfilling relationship. But no matter what I do, I cant find one!
With girls - admittidly it's been a long time since I've been with a girl, mainly coz I've been too afraid. Rejection by a man is one thing, but girls in my experience are alot crueller. I would love to have a girlfriend again, but I'm too afraid to put myself out there. I guess thats why Im here in someways....
But its not girls im whinging about, its guys.
I can be friends with guys, get along with them really well. But thats it, friendship is where the line is drawn. It's always "Emily, you're a great mate, love hanging out with you, you're an awesome drinking buddy...BUT you're just not...girlfriend material/dateable/fuckable" you get the picture right?
So what is it? Am I too much of a tomboy? I try to be feminine sometimes (see pics attached) but I just dont think I pull it off. I try to be flirty, and sometimes they flirt back, but in a friends kind of way, not a 'hey im intereted' way.
Or am I just plain unloveable, undesireable..... what is it? What could it be? I really want some honest opinions here,please dont hold back. I know you dont know me personality wise, but if you dont think its my looks, could you sugget what it might be coz I'm going insane!
Me trying to be sexy and feminine