You see for me, my life evolves around swimming. I wake up and go training, i study sport at University, go to the gym at lunch time and then go training after university. Many people love sport and i would imagen that someone who reads this will have at some point played or been involved in a sport or activity that they have loved, but this is abit differen’t. There is nothing i do in a day where i dont think will this effect my performance. I eat a certain diet, i dont drink and i have a regular sleeping pattern. My goal is to swim at a international level and hopefully if not London 2012 then certainly Rio 2016. All this training keeps me healthy, looking and feeling fit as well as a good social life with team mates at training etc.. but recently i have been feeling abit down.
What if i dont make it and i have missed out on those precious teenage years? I mean dont get me wrong i havent completely missed out. I get to go out every once in a while, but i get invited to parites all the time but i have to say the same statement over and over again : “im sorry i cant i have training.” So the conflict between been an athlete and a regular young man is a hard battle to fight every day.
I bet there are thounsands of sports men and women out there who are going through the same as me, so i am not claiming to be special in any way, but wrighting this leaves me with a sence of relief i can get it off my chest.
Now the one major downside to all this training is my sex life. Having time for a girlfriend is pritty much non-existant. I do crave having someone to meet up with and be with. But as bluntly as i can put it more importantly i am i horny young man with needs i can’t fulfill as often as i need too.
Maybe i am feeling the downside of this more at the moment as the person who i used to reguarly talk to and have webcam sex with slipped up that she was married and her husband had no idea of it. So as i felt guilty, i broke our arrangment off. Many will think im stupid as in a way it wouldn’t normaly be viewed as cheating, but if he found out and they split up, the guilt would deffently play on my mind. Which goes back to my first mind set, do i need a guilt concence while training?
I never thought webcam sex would be so releaving, but when thats all you have time for...it can be such a thrill. Thinking that even if they are miles away or even in a different country, they are taking pleasure in helping me get off to some much needed relief. Huge turn on. Hopefully i will be back at it again soon.
Also i have had just over a 2 week break from training, due to christmas and the new year...as i train away from my family it was great to go home and see them. But useally when come i have a couple of friends from when i was at high school, who offer good benefits when i meet up with them. As the both know my situation and like to offer their help...But unfortunatly they were busy with work and coursework so i didn’t get to meet them.
No time to be sad about missed opportunity though, training starts again next week and its back to 12 sessions a week for me.
I hope my first blog was intresting enough and i will be looking forward to any comments left.
P.S sorry about spelling, no spell checker!