I may delete this soon as I don't want to be known for my lows nor have reminders of them as i start to feel better. I just needed all this out I guess. Where no one has to listen or read unless they want to. I don't like burdening others but it feels like I'm drowning in my own life. I guess I'm really lonely right now and I don't know how to stop it. No idea. And the imminent future doesnt seem bright. I just feel lower then I have in a very long time.
I'll be fine. things will get better and I will feel better. Eventually.