So i told him..... EVERYTHING. i told him how i had felt judged. I told him he was mistaken, that SF is not all about hooking up or one big orgy. I have friends here. People who know alot about me and still accept me, they give me advice when I am being stubborn, give me outlooks, and ive learned alot from you guys. You have boosted my confidence with your acceptance, but then came the bad part. he asked about a visit id had with someone from this site last year. because judging from the comments it looked like something happened between us. I had to set the record straight and all of you here know what happened and that it was strictly platonic. I told him how I had cammed with certain people from here on skype, and even played on cam. My heart broke when he reached for the watch I gave him and my key around his neck and gave them back before he stormed out of my room. I thought I had lost him for good right there but after I dont even know how long I pleaded with him to just hear me out and he did. He also brought up emails I had, n which another member and myself had been writing out a "sequel type scenario" for my blog. It was awful, no matter which way I put it, it was betrayal. All of this could have been avoided had I just been honest to begin with. And im sure there are going to be some thinking to themselves, WHY WOULD U TELL HIM THAT????!!!!! but I had to come clean: plain and simple he told me he knew it all and that if I left out anything and tried to hide it, then he would leave end of story, Being honest was the only thing that saved my relationship.
Im writing this because I know you will be honest with me. And to prevent someone from making the same mistake I did. If anything you guys know how much I love him, I always talk about him. He is the one I see myself with, hes the best thing thats ever happened to me. & it hurts to know that I hurt him. I regret the hell out of it and im just sorry for what i did to him. & Unfortunately, I have broken the trust and im scared as hell that it may never be the same. But it would be what I deserve. I do know that I will work like hell to get it back though. So....... we havent really discussed my account and whether I will be keeping it but i am however hoping I can get him on here to show him how great ya'll are. Whats your opinion?
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