I know at first this sounds weird but I've honestly never been confident, and if I seemed confident, it was fake. And not just in bed, everywhere, at school, home, work, with my friends, everywhere. I grew up being told, in far fewer and much more offending words, that I was garbage, useless, and would never amount to anything. And I believed it; hear something enough and no matter how hard you fight it, you still believe it. Growing up like that, and continuing to live like that even until this very day, I've ruined a lot of opportunities I may have had without realizing it. However, lately I'm starting to see that maybe I am worth something and that I do deserve to fulfill my dreams and be happy with myself and my life. To start me towards that goal, I'm meeting some friends at the gym tomorrow to start a workout program, I'm gonna work towards a promotion at work, and I'm going to try to be confident. I want to go into a relationship and know that I'm a great guy that's worth dating and falling in love with. When I get in bed with a girl I want to know that I'll blow her mind and make her want to come back for more, and for once in my life I want to walk into a crowded room and feel good about myself instead of trying to disappear. These are just a few of the goals I've set for myself but I'm determined to reach them.