I want to talk about the film of the name of “Shame”, and also the shame that I have that goes inline with sex addiction. Shame is a great film, very artistic with some great camera shots, and great acting from Michael Fassbender and supporting acters. Its a story about a high flyer named Brandon, who has a sex addiction which greatly causes trouble in his life. He sleeps with prostitutes regularly, and even cruises for people to pick up in the street. There’s a point in the film he deliberately gets himself beaten up, by fingering a girl at a bar and shoving his fingers into the nose of her biker boyfriend. With that point I want to talk about my shame, and the reasons I think Brandon got himself beaten up. To me sex is like a drug, the build up to the climax of cumming can be ecstasy, I just get lost in the moment and lose control, I really can’t explain enough how it makes me feel. But once I reach the big climax, I’m empty, just nothing, I turn completely numb to everything, until however long it takes for me to get randy again, which can be straight away, which sometimes make it a worse feel, to half an hour. You really want it to all stop at times, because you start doing and looking at things you not proud of. Brandon had just hit one of these points in the film, which is why he go himself beaten up. That part was hard for me to watch, because I knew exactly how he felt at that point. There were a few points I found it hard to watch, I just felt that I was on display with the film.
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