Long time since my last entry, I've kept it basically just to individual posts.
What I called my experiment back in September I didn't actually get to until about a month later but I did and to be honest, I feel so much more free. The thought was one thing but the action was another. Embracing who I am has been a truly remarkable experience.
Letting myself be bi, not making excuses and opening up to a relationship that just made sense was the best decision I ever made. Like I said before the person I have this connection with happens to be a guy. I am still attracted to women, very much so. Right now I'm with a man because he's one of my best friends and we have good chemistry and we happened to collide at a point in our lives when we needed each other.
We aren't overly "serious" or "romantic" but we are warm towards each other. Basically we are just two guys who like to hang out with each other, have common interests, watch sports, have general concern about eachother and oh yeah we have sex.
We have been seeing eachother about 3 or 4 times a week since October could be anything from just watching tv to going to a strip club (yes women) and we fuck 2-3 times a week and we talk basically every day. We are versatile in the bedroom but I am primarily the bottom and he is the top and there is nothing like it in the world.
There was a time when I never would have envisioned this or resisted entirely and I did. In general I still find women more attractive in a collective way but the person I connect with intimately on all levels happens to have a penis (and a nice one at that), so rather than deny or settle I've embraced this. I haven't quite warmed up to the taste of cum but I'll get there. It really is no different in principle than when I was with my ex-girlfriend. A body is a body and whether it has a penis or a vagina you can have fun with your lover
Haven't seen my lover in a week because of our Christmas family obligations but tomorrow we're getting together and I can't wait. AND we have a female friend stopping by as well so things should be interesting.
Its a Merry Christmas this year and will be a happy New Year, I'm happy now and I havent been since my last relationship evaporated. If riding a little pole is what it takes, thats fine with me.
To answer questions regarding my outness, I am not, nor do I feel the need to be. That is for me a selective thing, there is no need for me to publicly declare it to the world .
All that matters is I am me to myself.
Pics and maybe some video from tomorrow to follow. :-)