I'm left to wonder how to get over this like I have many times in the past.how doees a bad relationship turn toa good one? When u know it can be there but things and ppls seperate issues break the vital bonds of a relationship. Both ppl must try. Occasional fuckups can be expected but actively trying to fuck it up are 2 different things. I know I've written my story, I know I've played my part and I'm willing to accept the consequences of that only if it is going both ways. There are 2 ppl here that nd to accept responsiblity and take actions, yet I'm the only one who is an active particpant of the truth and setting the guidelines (and following them). So I'm left with this decision at the most difficult time in my life, for too many reasons to even list to myself, so what do I do? Where do I go from here? No one can tell me what to do. I know both sides. Both arguments. And I have my own too. Just wtf. If what was agreed upon a yr and a half ago had happened then we wouldn't be here now. I want someone to have pride in me. To be glad that we are together. I deserve that. Someone who acts like we are together even if I can't see him or what he is doing. Seems like its too much to ask. Or maybe its just me.