Have you ever had a moment in your life were you think, "holy shit, I'm a nasty, disgusting slut" and not in a good way. At the moment that is how I am feeling, like I am the lowest nastiest disgusting person on the face of the earth. I guess in a way I just need to vent, but then on the other hand I don't want to vent too much or say too much and then have everyone else thinking the same thing about me. Maybe I am feeling like if I write this and see it in print that I am nasty and disgusting and not to be trusted, liked whatever you want to call it then maybe I can start feeling better about myself. I'm sure by now if you've gotten this far in reading this you are thinking "what the fuck is she talking about" I guess the important thing is that I know what I'm talking about and that those of you that are my friends and reading this are probably going to reply and say what the hell is going on. As I sit and type this I am trying so hard not to start crying. I just feel as though I am the lowest of the low. I hope everyone can kind of understand, even though I haven't given any details as to why I feel this way and I'm not sure if I want to be that brave at the moment and say why I feel this way at the moment.