I'm like a walking hormone, walking around, constantly thinking about sex, looking at men in the street wondering what they'd say if I walked up to them and whispered "fancy a fuck?"
Oh How I wish there were some decent male escorts nearby, if there were, i'd be away to one for sure. many people think its really easy if you're a female to get sex when you want or need it but nothing could be further from the truth.
Well ok, i could go out tonight and pull someone no problem but thats not really what I want to do. I spent my 20's pulling guys for meaningless sex, some of it was amazing, some of it was shit but I always made sure I orgasmed, and when leaving to go home ( I rarely brought these guys to my house) if the sex had been great, we'd swop numbers just in case, if it was shit, i'd say I was married but it was great and thanks. Of course I wasn't married but it did no harm to let them down gently rather than say they were shit and I didn't care to repeat it.
When I got into bed last night, I curled up into my husbands back, my head on his shoulder and my legs tucked tight into his. His ass was nice and warm against my thighs, in his sleep, he felt me and reached out for my hand to hold. I was lying wondering how he couldn't feel horny ever.
Doesn't he get turned on at all? My nipples were like bullets against his back, even feeling him breathe turns me on, yet he sleeps on.
Normally he used to roll over when he felt me come to bed and before I'd know it, we'd be making slow lazy love or sometimes just have a mutual masturbate. We'd lie side by side, both half sleeping, my hand on his penis, lazily stroking him, i'd put my leg over his while his hand would slip inbetween them, stroking my thighs and moving up into my pussy. By now i'd usually be very wet, I juice up very quickly, and we'd often just lie there for a little while stroking each other to orgasm. I miss those nights the most.
I showered yesterday morning, and came into the bedroom wrapped in a towel. as I sat on the end of the bed rubbing my moisturiser into my legs, he came up behind me on the bed, put his arms around me and nuzzled into my neck, he told me how he loved the smell of my showered skin (molton brown blissful templetree yesterday) and he took the lotion from me and sat and rubbed it into my shoulders, back and down my arms. He kissed my neck as he did it, but what he didnt do was what normally happens next. normally his hands work over my shoulders and then his fingers open my towel, normally his hands will work around my collarbones, down over my decolletage and down over my breasts. That always make my nipples hard and my pussy wet so then, i lie back into him as he continues to moisturise down over my tummy, working around my thighs and then dives in between my legs. That usually ends up in great sex, however, again, yesterday, it stopped at my shoulders back and arms.
As he was moisturising me, I was thinking, perhaps this is it, perhaps he wants to make love, but there was no tell tale erection.
I took the bottle of moisturiser off him and gave him a kiss, yes we still snog, we do a lot. (I hate that word lol) he was dressed though, normally when i'm just out of the shower, he's sitting in his boxers or naked waiting on me coming out so we can have this ritual. He also used to brush my wet hair for me when we came out of the shower, i've not offered him the chance to do that in a long time now as I just no longer see the point.
We went out, had a lovely day shopping, went for lunch again and he was full of talk about our move to belfast. As we spoke, I felt my internal tourettes shouting "why arent you fucking me? where is the husband I used to have, its plain to see that you love me but you just don't fuck anymore"
I'm not getting thrilled anymore talking about sex, or looking at erotica, watching vids and seeing images is doing nothing for me. Yes i'm constantly horny but I don't want to be horny from that kind of sex. Does that make sense? I'm physically horny all day every day, physically wet, physically aroused but when it comes to talking about it or talking sex with others, I couldn't care less.
so, its nearly 8 months since my husband and I fucked, well its 3 days short, yes its on my mind that much that I know to the exact day. Am I counting? hell yes I am!
so, i'm in dire need right now for some sex, pure unadulterated sex. I miss my old Fuckbuddy so much. I can't help wondering if he was around, would the lack of sex from my husband bother me so much? I don't think it would bother me as much as at least i'd be having a basic human need fulfilled.
I'm half in the mind to be dressed up, make up on, hair done etc for hubby coming home from work tomorrow, to seduce him at the door as he comes in, thats what we used to do, but I cant be bothered now speding an hour getting ready for him to refuse or say "not now darlin"
oh what is a girl to do! If I could sell this horn, I would. There are females everywhere, some my friends that have lost their mojo's. I often tell them that i'll service their husbands for them and they can lie and sleep beside mine.
I'll let you know what i decide in the next few days, i'm either going to find a fuck buddy or i'm going back to my ladyland girl.
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