Recently I have been experiencing some love sicknesses. I decided to use it to write some of my feelings down about her. Recently, I was working a seasonal job over the summer, and it ended last week. I met someone there, she is very beautiful, nice, smart, and I fell hard for her. I was very conflicted because we were friends, and I am never sure where I will be in the future. But finally, I decided to talk to her about it, but she didn't want to get involved with anyone as she just broke up with her boyfriend a few months earlier, and she wants to focus on her career for the time being. I accepted that and we have stayed friends, but I realized later that I was falling in love with her. I repressed these feelings and kept them from her. I have been lovesick over her for several months. She doesn't know any of this and now we live in different places. A few weeks ago, I learned that she is now seeing someone. We still talk on facebook and txt messages, and I know she likes me as a friend. I think I have accepted that it is unlikely that anything will ever happen between us. I am still glad we are friends, although I can't help sometimes thinking about her in romantic and lustful ways.