The first site had me crossing paths with an older woman whom I'll call D. She was actually the one to reach out first, since it turned out that we had something in common; the same home state. Small world, huh? She actually commuted back and forth between here and California. At first I was a bit apprehensive; for all I knew, this was someone who knew who I really was. It turned out that my fears were unfounded; she was as non-judgmental as you could get. Her belief was that everyone had their own needs that brought them there.
D was very worldly; she had traveled a lot and had seen a lot, and was happy to share her experiences with me, both about our state, and from places she had been. I found myself opening up to her; our relationship was not sexual in nature, but it was no less intimate and private. And oh, could she write erotica! The site had a blog feature of its own, and while others tried their own pieces, hers was classy and elegant, but scorching. A couple of the pieces I have here in my own blog were originally posted there, and she felt they were very well done. Seeing as she inspired me to get my feet wet in that regard, I consider it high praise.
The last contact I had with her was not through the site. It was a brief phone conversation. A long-time love had come back in her life after getting his own affairs in order, and they were planning on getting married. She was leaving the site, but wanted to talk with me over the phone before she left for California again. Perhaps to let herself know that I was a real person on my end. Or perhaps to let me know the same; it's hard to say. I took the gamble and called. Within seconds, I could here it in her voice; I knew I had done the right thing. We talked briefly, thanked each other for our friendship, and parted ways. I've not heard from her since, as I expected I wouldn't, though I think of her often.
Not long after, I joined the second site, and it wasn't long before I met L, a younger woman from South Africa. It didn't take us long to hit it off; she's best described as the kind of girl you could go out and party with all night. She loved to have fun, and had no shortage of friends on the site we were both on.
I'm not sure how exactly we ended up connecting so well, but we did; over the course of a year, we became best friends on the site, and weren't shy about it, either. And yes, we did share intimate moments, but she was also the only one from that site who knew the real me, and not just the persona I had on the site. When we were going through our own bad times, we reached out to each other. She felt closer to me than a lot of her real life friends, and I will gladly admit that L is one lady that I dearly wish was a part of my own real life; video messages we would send each other at times only reinforced that.
I don't hear from her as much these days; events in her life, not all of them good, needed her to focus on her real life, and to take care of business. And of course I understand, I do. I hope and pray for her daily, and I do email her; even if she's unable to answer, I know she's reading, and that is enough. I do hope that someday, we'll pick up where we left off. She would often say that we would meet someday....I truly hope so. And who knows? Never say never.
D and L...two people who came into my life through ways I wouldn't have thought likely, and whom I will never forget. It's unexpected connections like that which make life worth going through.
Will I make such a connection here? I don't know. It's possible...it's always possible.
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