Fuck u. For some people u might have always been a second addict for others there might be a trigger. For me it's both. I love sex it's fantastic sweet soft hard tough I'm game. But when he calls or texts and tries to keep hurting me u go out of ur way to fuck with me. U treated me like shit tried to control me in every way but sexually. U were not my equal and u were not my dom. U were just a loser who treated me badly. So the point of this rant is that u still get into my head and every time u message me it makes me angry and I just want to go get fucked hard rough i don't care. I want an escape I want to be free and sex does that for me. So where is my HIM when I want him to treat me like a naughty lil girl..... He's far away :( but it's worth the wait. I gave up my 4 lil fuck buddies because they weren't doing the job well enough. But it's torture waiting for HIM.