However, lately there's been a shift in my train of thought. There's a guy. Who isn't like other guys. He's a little bit dorky and has interests I would have turned my nose to 5 years ago, but I cannot stop thinking about him. He's kind, respectful, funny, and decent. And instead of the usual sexual fantasies that take over when I have a crush, I have dreams about just hanging out with him, kissing him. There's something so innocent about our dynamic, and I like that.
So am I just getting desperate because I'm 23 and haven't been in a serious relationship before? Or am I just growing up?