OK, so I've been made to feel like a freak!
I asked my ex what she thought about us giving swinging a go.
After I tried to explain myself, she was horrified, shocked and hurt. She was hurt because she thought that she was not enough for me and I just wanted to fuck other women.
That was so not the case as she was the best I have ever been with in a sexual way.
I had read the signs all wrong, I believed she was as open minded as me. It was all very well talking about threesomes (MMF) while we were doing it, that was a big turn on, in reality threesomes and swinging was a closed door. I got it so wrong that it eventually ended the relationship.
She wondered why I had never suggested swinging to any previous girlfriends, so why her? Was she so crap in bed that I needed other people?
No way!!! She was fantastic in bed but convincing her of this now is impossible. I do understand where she is coming from though.
All of this has had a knock on mental effect on me though. It has made me feel like a freak. Some sort of weirdo because I do not know anybody personally who is as open or like minded as me. On the other hand I do know that there are plenty people out there like me. My search brought me here.
I need a place where I fit in, a place where I can chat to like minded friends. I'm still hurting over losing my girl but I need to make sense of my own state of mind.
I am not a jealous person at all. I find the whole world of swinging and threesomes incredibly interesting, exciting and fun. Such a natural thing to do. Am I really so wrong?