Well this semester is almost up and I am TRYING to get a paper done before I go to bed. i have to be at work by noon and i cantseem to get focused because i am stuck on here.... I'M ADDICTED!!!!! Well Wayne and I had fun today. hehe. i jacked him off while i drove. He loved it. then we came back to my house and watched some anime porn... turned us both on. We then had sex.... from missionary to doggie to anal (still doggie) and then after about 20 minute after he came..... we started back up again. lol. Then i had to come in here and work on the paper which i did not do much of and then i had that funny discharged. now i am even MORE stressed out because even though I want to have kids.... i know that it isnt the best thing for me and waynie.... I'd be happy... i think he would be. I just know that we both will probably feel likw we should have waited. I just know that I am going to be depressed when I start as always. lol. Well I do need to try and get finished with this stupid ass paper that I do not know what to write. AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! I just want to scream..... see... its just stress..... no pregers for me even though i want it..... someone else is going to end up pregers since I was late... that always happens. I'm late.... the person i barely know is pregnant... then i get depressed because it isnt me. I know i shouldnt want to now but i do and I dont know why i cant just enjoy the life i have without kids at the moment. part of me feels that my life wont be complete until we have kids.... does that make sense?