a little background on me, im 24, still a virgin, only kissed one girl my entire life, so this makes me uneasy and nervous about any type of sexual activity with a girl. i just cant seem to make a move for the life of me.
the last two time we hung out on her bed, we were laying down watching tv on her bed, and our hands were just playing with each other, and she got close enough to wrap herself around my arm, saying she was cold, and sorry im just using you for your warmth. (this is what throws me off to be honest) ended up staying at her house until 1 am that night
then last night, again at her house on her bed, she invites me over through a text saying come over if you want, we can chill/watch a movie...so i did. again parents home.
we talk/play guitar for about an hour, then on to her bed again laying down, our hands playing with each other, again she got close to me and wrapped herself around my arm. we were watching a movie this time, but just talking and not even paying attention to the movie. she starts rubbing my chest and getting more comfortable, putting her head on my chest, teasing my stomach with her fingers, and all the while im attempting to do the same. completely going out of my comfort zone touching her bare thighs (she was wearing really short shorts), lower back, arms, pretty much everything but her chest and between her legs. and again she kept saying sorry for just using you like this, i dont usually do this to people ive only known for as long as ive known you. and im talking we were pretty much body to body as we can be without having sex. we even spooned for a little bit with my arms around her. then i started teasing her stomach trying to get her ticklish/turned on (tips here lol, i did really light teasing strokes on her stomach, then a little firmer and got no where, but found her neck area turns her on though, so did some playing there
just overall we were extremely touchy feely last night. but for some reason im STILL getting the vibe that she just wants to be friends. i mean you may be reading this and thinking WTF? but when she says things like "im just using you for your warmth, sorry" or when her low cut top is going down and she pulls it back up saying "hope your enjoying the view" or...sorry mid post thought, im seriously trying to remember what else was throwing me off and i cant, and right now im kind of killing myself for not kissing her last night. we actually had a few of those moments laying in her bed, both of us facing each other, legs over each other, where i thought, "fuckk maybe this would be that perfect time to just go in for a kiss, but a. i guess i pussied out and b. i wasnt getting the vibe that she wanted me to kiss her.
i means she says shes really comfortable around me, and has no idea how she is has got so comfortable around me so fast, and if i move away she would come visit me just so she could have my body warmth, and yeah i get it that she enjoys spending time with me, but i cant help but feel shes looking at me as a "cuddle buddy" if thats even a thing lol.
sory for the essay/rant, i just feel like i need to vent. last night i spent until 2 am on her bed literally just cuddling with her and getting touchy with her, but it was all just PG-13 stuff, touching her hair, face, hands, upper part of bare leg, exposed lower back, neck, pretty much her entire body except the two sexual areas. she also mentioned to me that she was extremely horny growing up at a really young age, and that she really love affection/romance. and while i was touching her neck (which she told me she REALLY likes) im pretty sure she was getting turned on, i heard a really faint moan, and she had her legs close together bent at the knees and rocking her legs back and forth like she was getting really squirmy in a good way. that fucking turned me on like nothing before.
so help me out sexy people of sexforums, am i just overthinking and letting my fear get the best of me here? this is the closest ive been to a girl in my life and its a great feeling just being next to a woman who is comfortable around you and feeling there body next to yours is just an amazing feeling (even though i should have been experiencing this years ago)
This post has been edited by princecharming8: Sat Apr 28, 2012 10:15 AM