Fast forward now I've been talking to and hanging out with a good friend of mine, she's going through a bit of a hard time and she's all upset. Here's the thing though, her and I about 6 years ago had a 2 night alcohol fueled night of sex that I will never forget.
That aside I've always been extremely attracted to this girl and I told her about 5-6 months ago because I just couldn't take it anymore knowing how I felt. After I told her that she told me she had a thought that I felt that way just because of the way I acted, ie. I offer to drive her to work every morning since its on my way home and do things for her and always go and have a smoke when possible. I'm crazy about this girl if you couldn't figure that out....
Anyways she knows what I'm going through and offered to help me move but since my gf knows the past between this girl and I I told her that it just wouldn't really be a nice/fair thing to do but I thanked her either way.
Now, today I asked her that after I'm moved and settled in if she wanted to maybe go out for dinner or go see a movie or just go for a walk (since the beach is so close) and she was pretty happy (and I'm sure surprised) that i asked but said yes of course and to let her know whenever I'm ready.
I'm just happy she said yes, I've known this girl for 7-8 years now and I've always been attracted to her and she feels the same way (those 2 nights we had she instigated everything I didn't even have to try. The only thing I worry about is that if we don't work out, I don't want to lose one of my best friends... That's my biggest worry.
The only thing I dont like about this girl is that shes had a ton of sexual/physical relationships which one now lead to an abortion but she realizes now that she has to hangs her lifestyle and said she needs someone to help her make the right decisions (which I'm doing, in terms of giving advice on what to do, which was be single and figure out what you want in life before relying on a partner). I know this sounds strange because I asked her out earlier but at the same time I could see us having a good and highly communicative relationship if it worked out to go that far. All of my friends say that we would make a great couple, one of my friends says all the time when it comes up that I could do so much better, but hey, we're all attracted to different types of people...
After all of that, I feel horrible/guilty in a sense. It the other side of me knows that I'm not in love with my gf anymore and am moving.
This post has been edited by Xtreme1986: Mon May 21, 2012 04:55 PM