All good things... So long SF and thank you
Posted Tue Oct 08, 2013 02:50 AM
I've decided to leave SF, certainly for the short term but I don't know if I will ever return. Its clear that although there has been some undeniable good when combined with the other things going on in my life the bad sadly outweighs it. I've done myself far too much harm and that simply has to change. Part of my aim is to try breaking from the cycle I trap myself in. I have to face my demons and I have to do it alone.
I joined SF and the spiral of depression just intensified. It reached a point where suicide was a genuine option and self harm just spiralled out of control.
I need to change and the things I need to do cover my whole life not just this. But each step feels necessary. I realise I may hurt and upset people. I only hope that in time I can be forgiven. I don't expect that to happen but a little hope is no bad thing. This sounds intensely dramatic. It's not the intent I was just never good at saying goodbye. But that is what this is.
Thank you everyone at SF. For all you have done for me. You all deserve far better friends than I could ever hope to be. In the coming days I will send my thanks to those who have made such a difference to me and then my haunting will be done.
If fate wills it perhaps our paths shall cross again. I hope on that day the person I am is better than what leaves this place today.
Posted Tue Oct 08, 2013 03:01 AM
Posted Tue Oct 08, 2013 03:47 AM
good luck my friend
Posted Tue Oct 08, 2013 04:02 AM
don't let the self harm win, yes it is so so hard to overcome. hardest thing we can do is try and believe ourselves when things aren't good.
Posted Tue Oct 08, 2013 06:39 AM
Til we meet again sweetie!
Posted Tue Oct 08, 2013 09:14 AM
.....................................................take care Geist....... xoxoxoxoxo
Posted Tue Oct 08, 2013 09:48 AM
You will be missed here but we do understand that you must take the necessary steps to get help and banish the demons you face. Good Luck to you and I hope to see you back here very soon.
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Posted Tue Oct 08, 2013 03:41 PM
Battle those demons and please don't feel nervous coming back if you need some support.
There are a lot of us here that want the very best for you and want to help if we can.
Please take care and I wish you all the very best to get well again.
I'll miss you while you're away
Posted Tue Dec 24, 2013 12:49 AM
Redruby( BigDee) xxxo