I've often wondered if it would be a lot more enjoyable without one as I feel it takes away a lot of the sensation but I believe that's only part of it. Another part is that after years of masturbating to porn it has wired my brain to only get off a certain way, watching others have sex. One of the biggest things that gets me down and makes me feel inferior and a failure as a human being is my inability to attract a partner.
I feel depressed right now because I can't deny the truth any longer that I just do not enjoy sex its too much hard work with little pleasure I have more fun with my hand. But I feel if I don't enjoy sex what chance do I have to get a girlfriend? How can I motivate myself knowing that if I miraculously manage to acquire a partner the act of making love is about as enjoyable as washing the dishes? Obviously there's more to a relationship than just sex which I want, but sex is an important part of it.
I feel envious of other people who have healthy relationships and sex lives they have no idea how lucky they are. I don't know how on earth anybody attracts a partner it just seems like an impossible feat to me, a lot of people meet partners through friends I believe but I have none.
I was considering maybe I should give online dating a try, like what the hell. But I worry if I did get a girlfriend how is it going to be when she finds out I can't fuck like a normal guy, I'm worried she'd not want to be with me and it'd be just one more thing I'd failed at.
This post has been edited by Bree_olson_rules: Wed Jun 08, 2016 02:27 PM