Why do I do this?
Posted Mon Mar 02, 2009 11:47 PM
Well, Although, I can talk to her about anything, We don't share a lot of interests and this makes me feel really really awful. We both have a passion for music and writing and helping out kids and so forth. But she doesn't like my type of music, and I can't really get used to hers. We're very opposite on most things. If I love it, she may dislike it or hate it. Vice versa. I dunno. I feel like maybe I'm keeping and holding her back. I don't think I'm good enough for her and I rather not have her break up with me or find me boring. She says the fact opposites attract will keep the relationship interesting.
Age isn't really a factor, but I don't feel much accepted around her friends since they are much older and I feel like the young guppie fish. I'm also growing through college while she's sorta settled and find a job, she can turn into a career. I'm still finding myself. I want her there. I just don't feel right, while I'm going through life and struggling with stuff and not being able to bring anything to the relationship except myself. Ha, I guess that's all that really matters right? I don't feel like I can give her anything she doesn't already have.
I tried to break up with her, and ended up backing out. I cried as I was doing it[yes, bawled my eyes out:cry: ] I really love her and enjoy her company. I don't know what's eating me up inside. I admit I'm an over analyzer and I tend to over-anaylze situations.
I get really sad, I want to be with her, but I dunno. It's like I want something I can't have. Or not supposed to have. I feel like I'm holding on for my own selfish needs.I do get upset and frustrated and do cry about it. (hey, don't judge me ha.)
Posted Tue Mar 03, 2009 12:13 AM
Posted Tue Mar 03, 2009 12:37 AM
Wow. Thanks Lips. That response helps alot. It's nice to know I'm not alone. I was just chatting with her( my gf) and noticed her smile and it calmed me all down.
Posted Tue Mar 03, 2009 06:02 AM
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