Was It Even Worth Writing?
Posted Wed Jul 22, 2009 08:45 PM
"Look, Iíve never done this before and Iím not really sure how it goes so Iím just going to get right to it.
Iíve been in love with you Allie, Iíve been in love with you for a long time now, and the only reason I didnít say this sooner is because I was confused. I was confused if I really knew what love was! I wanted to make sure that this was true. I wanted to make sure that this wasnít just me wanting to have sex with you or me wanting what I couldnít have. I wanted to make sure this was real Allie; I wanted to make sure this was what Iíve read in the books and seen in the dramas and watched in movies!
Heh, You know how you always hear about that kid who took everything for granted and then twenty years later he realized that he shouldnít have and that he wants everything that he had before back? But Allie, this isnít twenty years later. This is here and now, I realized what I did wrong and I want to show you that I can make up for it. I want to show you that I can be everything youíve ever dreamed of. I can be more than just a guy you hook up with, or just a guy you mess around with, I can be it all! I want to take a stroll in the park with you and tell you that I love you while all the little kids around us are making kissing noises and saying ďooh la la.Ē Because I donít care what anyone else thinks Allie! I donít care if my sister hates you or if her friends think youíre a random Korean girl that shows up at my house from time to time. I donít care if my friends donít approve of me going out with you or if my parents say no. Do you know why I donít care Allie? I donít care because I love you that much, and because nothing anyone else says or does is going to stop that. No one can change how I feel about you Allie, not you, not me, not anyone!
Allie, I donít want what I feel for you to end, I donít want what we have to end. I donít want you to be mad at me forever, I donít want you to hurt for forever, and I donít want the burden Iíve placed on you to linger forever. I just want things to go back to how they were before; Allie, I want you to tell me that you love me again! I want you to tell me that you feel the same way that I do. I want you to tell me that you want to date me again.
Allie, I love you. I love you more than the stars love the night or the light loves the sun. I want you once more, I want to hold you and do anything youíve ever dreamed of with you! I want to go out to dinner or cook you it at my house. I want to take you to a movie and have you cry on my shoulder when the main character dies or his heart breaks. I want to bake you a cake on your birthday and blow out the candles with you. I want to give the greatest hug when you leave for college and tell you that I will wait for you. I want you back Allie, I want you back."
Well... that would be it, now, I am wondering if anyone on SF received a letter like this, how they would react. Personally I typed this, then wrote it out and handed it to her. Her response was indifferent, but one day my friend accidentally saw it, read it, and said that if her ex boyfriend (who had some serious issues) had given her the same letter, she would give serious consideration to going back out with him.
So I ask you this, if you were given the same letter but with your name instead, how would you react?
Posted Wed Jul 22, 2009 08:57 PM
I notice that you're apparently still in high school. Do a year or two at college at then go back and read your letter
Posted Wed Jul 22, 2009 09:29 PM
Hope you're getting over her though... just as GNC said, keep the letter and read it again in a couple of years.
Posted Wed Jul 22, 2009 09:54 PM
Posted Thu Jul 23, 2009 10:57 AM
Posted Tue Jul 28, 2009 02:21 AM
We're friends now and there is no weird, awkward romantic/sexual tension between us. We just talk about the now since it's what we have. The past is the past, we can't change it so just remember it and think about today.
Posted Fri Sep 25, 2009 04:23 AM