What's going on with me?
Posted Wed Oct 14, 2009 07:37 AM
I've always regarded myself as quite a sexual person and enjoyed sex and I don't know what's happened. Maybe I'm depressed I don't know.
I still masturbate quite frequently more out of necessity rather than really really enjoying it. In fact most of the time when I finish I feel guilty.
Secondly, I dont have a boyfriend but I don't even know how I would be if I had one because I feel like I don't want anyone to touch me. I can't even think about sleeping with someone at the moment, it kinda makes me feel sick. I generally don't mind people touching me but of late I hate it and I feel myself pulling away from people.
There has been a guy on the scene but it has been more of a fuck buddy situation and I felt like I was falling for him so I backed off and decided it would be silly of me to get more involved and Id have myself to blame for getting broken hearted. So I ceased contact but however he has be in touch kind of on and off and I feel like I am puling away because I dont know what he wants plus I think hes being playing games with me.
I've considered changing my cell number so that he cant reach me anymore but I think its maybe a drastic action even though he hasnt done anything wrong.
I don't know, the key thing is I don't know how I am ever going to get close to someone when the thought of them touching me makes me feel sick. HELP!
Posted Wed Oct 14, 2009 07:51 AM
Posted Wed Oct 14, 2009 08:13 AM
I'm hoping this is something that will pass in time but who knows.
Posted Wed Oct 14, 2009 10:11 AM
While I like men in their early 20's very much I have no idea what they go through but my sense is it is more an angry feeling than an insecurity. It will pass.
Posted Wed Oct 14, 2009 10:16 AM
I think I agree, lol.. I wouldn't say anything is wrong with you, but maybe talking to someone would help.
Posted Wed Oct 14, 2009 11:19 AM
Posted Wed Oct 14, 2009 11:20 AM
By which I mean you already know you are gay and just have a low libido.
If you are just trolling, who knows, have fun.
But it you're male or female, gay, straight or bi, and your libido is so low you don't want to be touched:
Even if a member were a dr or counselor they could not and would not diagnose or advise in this setting.
You may not have to tell someone everything about you for weeks. Sometimes testosterone supplements can do the job.
If you do have something a counselor needs to work with you on, it's better than living life alone.
It could be comittment or abandonment issues or it could be an issue from your past that needs addressing. Or it could be a list of other issues, each with their own treatment and timeline.
Either way, it's way better than spending your life sickened by the human touch.
That is an unbearable loss.
Think of it as waking up with an abnormal growth on your gentials.
Over time it will grow. It will get worse. It will get more difficult to treat.
Would you not see a dr for that?
Posted Wed Oct 14, 2009 05:38 PM
I don't know whats wrong with me, I think I've just had a couple of bad experiences lately with guys I've met and have probably just felt taken advantage of. Also, someone very very close to me was raped recently and I was utterly devastated for her.
Maybe thats the reason. I'm not meaning to offend anyone on here but I guess I've just got into a "men are shit" mentality when its probably just the people that I've come across recently. I had my heart broken a couple of years ago and although I am over him I think its had a really long lasting effect on me and I've never been able to trust since. I knew before I had this issue but it was more of an issue for me emotionally and now its progressed to a sexual issue.
Man, how did I get so many issues!!!
Posted Thu Oct 15, 2009 02:35 AM
Posted Thu Oct 15, 2009 10:14 AM