I'm 23 years old and I'm still a virgin. Being a V isn't the problem. I mean I could have sex if I wanted too. I'm a handsome guy, got a webcam and pics to prove it and I'm not being stuck up I'm trying to be honest so you all can see where I am coming from in a couple secs
Okay yes I'm a virgin, but I like physical contact. The thing is, I tend to now only like to give it and not recieve it. For example, I have a best friend, we'll call her Nu-Nu. She's not a virgin, but I do love her and like her a lot. She has a kid, but she is trying to not make the same mistake. So just last year, we kinda became intimate partner in a way.
Nu-Nu sometime likes for me to give her a massage. Full body, you know, just a regular massage nice slow, and very well done. Then I do a intimate massage until it results in orgasm, and since shes my best friend, I do this until she gets enough for one night. I just use my hands, some massage oil haven't done anything with a toy yet, but I have a bought a Hatachi Wand that I plan on using.
The thing is, when I do give her a massage, I can't do it without her wearing a blind fold, I don't like her looking at me while I'm doing it, I feel shy? Embarrased? Uncomfortable? I don't know really.
Afterwards, sometime, she ask is there anything she can do for me. I always say "no that's okay." I don't know why. I'm not small down there or anything, I measure just a little bit below 8inches. My body is in good shape. As crazy it sounds, I just can't figure it out.
I can say however, I like giving orgasms more then I like recieving. I think I'm saying that right I'm not sure. Like when I get horny what I think about is giving a orgasm and the way it looks, the person looks the changes in the body. I like giving those massages.
Even with porn, I like to watch instructionals about fingering, finding different zones on the body and in the intimate areas. that's the stuff that interest me. I don't think that's weird?
But some of my female friends, and my best friend, at times think I'm weird cause they can see clearly im aroused by looking at my pants or my eyes, but i refuse. Sometimes when im horny i just like to play with my bestfriends boobs while I watch a movie or something.
One of my friends, pulled me to the side one time and ask if I was gay, because I didn't sleep with who was suppose to be, "the hottest girl in town" when she came over to stay with me for the weekend and she tried to get with me twice. Because I wouldn't and I am a virgin is the reason we never dated.
On the issue of dating, I have crushes and stuff. I tend to have most of my crush's on good looking older women like 25-35. My last girlfriend was 28. After being cheated on by girls my age, it's kinda a uncomfort zone to date someone younger or close to me. I have a big crush on one particular girl. But what keeps me from getting into relations is that I am a V and I don't wanna be cheated on or making hard on my gf because I want have sex wit her.
One thing that really bothers me, is that I had a female friend I was really close too. We did a massage thing like that once. A few weeks later, she was in car note trouble and ask to borrow 300 dollars. She said she'd give me a blow job, do this and that, blah blah blah u get the picture. She was saying like a frien and at first I was like cool come get it, take ur time paying me, just try to pay me back. Well when she came to get the money, my whole mindset change and I just told her to take the money, she's my friend she don't have to do that. but she still wanted to, and i didn't let her and she got pissed at me and look me straight in the eye and said, "tell me the truth are you gay?" it honestly hurt, i didn't show it though. I was just trying to be a real friend you know. or maybe i was just scared, i ono.
Imma stop here cause i don't wanna make it much more longer. But am I really that weird being that I am a guy?
This post has been edited by B3astiie: Mon Mar 22, 2010 01:08 AM