But when it comes to maturity, I am only 24, so in general I just find it's not worth it to venture towards younger guys (no offense to any here). Younger to me is quite young, in the scheme of things. However...
There are many guys interested in me right now(all for different reasons with different intents i'm sure), but there's only one that I'm beginning to entertain the idea of sleeping with. And he is significantly younger than me, by 4 years. It doesn't seem like much, but... he's only 20. He's not even of legal drinking age, so he's still in that "party hardy" stage of life, women and alcohol. He's a very good kid otherwise, an extremely hard worker and probably one of the best employees (aside from myself of course ) that my company has at the moment.
We have a lot of fun at work and there's been a few flirtatious moments between us but I flirt practically constantly! Up until last night any naughty thoughts associated with him had remained few and far between - yes, I admit they were there, lol just not a whole lot of them.
Last night I let myself go. I don't mind partying and having a good time but very rarely do I cross any lines, to where I can't safely find my own way home, etc. Those days for me have passed long ago. But last night was a small hiccup in this journey we call life. The Browns lost another game by the skin of their teeth like always, so right around 3pm I started drinking. At 5 I went to my friend/coworkers and we drank a bit more, then we went to our Company Christmas party where we drank some more. Then it was back to her house where we drank even more, and by then I wasn't thinking clearly at all and I got extremely high. Now, I don't smoke (pot anyway) on a regular basis. That too is something I've grown out of. We're talking I have taken a hit off the odd joint here or there maybe once a year, I've not gotten downright HIGH in probably 5+ years.
Long story short, by the end of the night the above mentioned guy and I were hanging on eachother and flirting excessively. Both before and after smoking. In the back of my mind the voice was shouting "He is just a baby, you don't want to corrupt him!"
What *is* appealing about this guy, most of you probably will not understand. He IS in his wild years so he is not at all wanting to settle down. A lot of times when I sleep with somebody, they become obsessed with me (sorry, sounds horrible but it's true) and it's like i'm trying to beat them off with a stick. I feel as if because he's worried about quantity over quality right now, he'd be a "safe bet" for me seeing as I don't want a relationship. However... I FEEL VERY VERY VERY STRONGLY ABOUT THIS AGE THING. I don't want drama, I don't want people to hear about it, if we sleep together I want it to remain between us because we work together. Is it silly of me to even think about this? Probably... ? I think I know the answer.
He is already in contact with me this morning telling me how badly he wanted me last night, so I feel as if now is the time to make my decision. I don't want to lead him on if I don't think I'll be able to follow through. I don't know if I can get past the age thing.
So what I am getting at here, is there any "rule" you have for yourself, a standard if you will; that you have contemplated bending/breaking? Why? How did it turn out for you?
This post has been edited by ♪♫Lyrical♫♪: Mon Dec 20, 2010 10:36 AM