I spent the last couple of teenage years happily enjoying myself, making personal discoveries, meeting new people and obviously doing silly things with those people and making mistakes with those people. It was great, it was simple.
An then bam just a few months ago everything changes i turn 18 and those mistakes which would be forgiven before have suddenly turned into colosal issues like id broken the law and its this close scrutiny which all of my actions now seem to be under that has driven me to start to question my actions alot more and this blog is gonna be about one of those incidents that would previously have been so much easier, and its going to start with a line that begins so many great stories.
So i met this girl, now this girl was something seriously special like the first time i met her there was this spark and right from the moment i met her we spent the whole night talking and i was actually interested in the conversation it was a real change for me so i basically had been getting to know this girls over the las few months since each other a few times since then but i've now reached a dilemma i don't know if i want to seriously woo this girl or if i wanna just carry on with normal teenage life of pointless interactions with girls.
On the wooing front iv'e already put in a fair bit of effort my favourite being climbing through her bedroom window on valentines day and giving her a single red rose, the girl makes me feel so happy and i just want to do everything i can show her how special she is so i give her little compliments when we're together because they make her blush and it is like the cutest thing in the world. (I'm young i'm allowed to use cliches) an i decided to myself a while ago now that if i was gonna go down this route with her i was gonna do it properly and treat her right which means no screwing her about and doing things with other girls not even in the time i was trying to woo her. this was originally incredibly simple because i was going through a bit of a dry spell when i met her so there was nothing to distract me so i was well and truly on the wooing path.
Then word got around that i was trying to get with her and suddenly a few girls that i'd been thinking i might have one offs with started to declare a bit of interest in me and as it stands there are currently 4 girls who i could do something physical with at the cost of very minimal effort and 2 of these are girls that are in the category of "its not if, its when"
So now i have this dilemma do i go through with these girls who mean nothing? or do i keep pushing with the one who seems like she could be something special but also the one most likely to hurt me?
God I miss being 17 ><.