I guess i'll start with how I became a memeber of sex forums.
Just before my birthday this year,I came out of a relationship. The strangest,most fucked up yet exciting and beautiful relationship. I wasn't feeling great and I wanted to escape reality. At the start of Moby Dick the narrator says that when he feels grim about the mouth and like knocking peoples hats off he takes to the Sea, well I was feeling like knocking peoples hats off. Sadly the sea wasn't an option. So I turned to sex. For a few weeks I had a fair amount of meaningless sex mainly with friends and basically fucked around feeling a little lost. I dislike realism I want my life to be like the narrators in Moby Dick and be saved by a wee bit of sailing, however this was never going to be the case. Anyway a few days after my birthday I realised that fucking most of my friends wasn't the brightest of ideas and sat with my laptop on my bed and typed 'sex forums' into google. Sexforums.com was the first thing that came up, I double clicked, and signed up straight away. The same day I uploaded photos 'my first thread' I just uploaded two that were on my laptop already lying across my desk in stockings and leopard print underwear. As the comments came in I loved it, I got so excited at the thought of people liking the way I looked, and enjoying looking at my photos. I realised this gave me more of a thrill than fucking half my friendship group, something I was doing just to make myself feel desired and wanted. I soon became addicted, checking sex forums for new private messages and comments several times a day. I loved private messages from guys who liked my photos, and soon had guys writing me little stories telling me what they would like to do to me. The thought that they had sat there thinking about me really excited me! Almost six months later, I am still updating the same thread,and still love redaing the comments from guys and girls enjoying looking at my photos. I've started responding more to private messages, well to certain people anyway. I now enjoy the odd aim conversation with strangers though I do talk to one person in particular. A stranger from across the globe by all accounts, but hell its fun. The people around me would find my little secret pretty damn fucked up and I have had periods of not entering sex forums for a a month or so, but am currently enjoying my secret addiction.
I think i'll finish my first entry here, I have quite the tendency to ramble.
From on I shall observb the title of my blog and reveal my exploits.
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