I saw this question posted today and I didn’t think it could be answered in short, so here's the long version. If I weren't ansking this of myself already, I would never have found this site. I am VERY glad I did both, ask this question of myself and join this site.
If I knew I guess I wouldn’t be…I think the operative word is curiosity.
Ever since I was a screwed up kid in high school, I’ve always wondered about it. The first time I ever questioned it was the first time I was hit on by a member of the same sex that I can recall. I was 16 and outside of driving around, drinking beer, smoking weed and generally living like we were in the movie “Dazed and Confused” with “the guys.” I was frustrated. I just couldn’t loose my virginity fast enough. I made the statement one night after a couple of beers “Maybe we should all turn gay, because none of us are getting any pussy.” The next day a friend of a friend of mine asked me if I was serious.
I was a varsity soccer player and kind of popular, so this was completely out of the question. I never really knew how to talk to him after that. Shortly thereafter, I had my first experience with a woman, had a terrible attempt at eating pussy and didn’t have a lot of fun…but I guess that’s what the first time is for.
My second encounter was much better. It was with a red-headed girl who was very experienced and she had a crush on me. We met at a party and after wards we headed back to my place. This girl tore me up. We were still in high school at the time and this was the girl who taught me how to fuck. I also acquired the taste of pussy with her…something I still love to this day!
The next time I thought about it was a few years later. I had always thought about getting my girlfriends to play with my ass, but it just wasn’t happening. I had tried to have sex with a guy but I wasn’t ready and we just jumped straight to anal penetration. While he was trying to penetrate me though, he started jacking me off…and I really liked it. I suddenly felt ashamed, called it off and made him leave with a hard-on.
Then there was a couple of REALLY good friends I dated for a short while. All three of us were working in a restaurant and one night we went out for drinks. I had already been fucking his wife and this night I wanted to fuck her a lot. The problem was that her husband was there. So upon dropping her off at my place, we all got into a group hug and then they started to pull away from me. I said “No! Please stay.” I started kissing HIS neck and rubbing his cock through his jeans. He and I started making out and before I knew it, his wife was on her knees sucking both of our cocks. The strangest part of the night was that he and I took turns fucking each other in the ass while his wife was masturbating. That was so much fun. The second time, they had changed jobs, we had drifted apart and it didn’t work out so well and was the end of our relationship.
After that, it was south Florida. I got a little drunk and I obviously wasn’t getting any pussy again…another dry spell. I was drinking scotch and vodka with a few guys and they started calling me a “fag.” I told them I wasn’t gay, I was bi. I thought would have them leave me alone…until one of them started flirting with me. Then it was “Hey let’s go up to my room and we can smoke some weed.” I said “Ok.” As soon as I walked through the door, he through me on the bed, took my pants off and started fucking me in the ass. I wasn’t hard when he started, but I guess I liked it, because I did get hard. He started saying “Do you want me to cum in your ass?” My next thought was “No, I’d better suck him off.” So his hard cock kept going from my ass to my mouth and back in my ass again as I kept changing my mind, until he got rough and it hurt. Then I kicked him off of me, gathered my things and ran out of the room. I was thinking that we could try it again with his girlfriend, a very pretty south Florida girl…but not going to happen.
So, now that brings me to where I am today. I don’t drink, do drugs, smoke cigarettes or anything for that matter, so I don’t have any excuses, like “I was drunk.” I am feeling confined and thinking of things I had never fully explored before. It’s almost as if I’ve never given myself the freedom to experience what would happen “if.” I don’t want any “If only’s” when I am on my death bed. I have begun to taste my own cum and get ready to go down on a guy. I have always known my ass is an erogenous zone on my body and I enjoy playing with women’s asses…with my tongue, my fingers and especially my cock. Why shouldn’t I let people play with mine?
Don’t get me wrong, I am very masculine and love the feel of wet vagina around my tongue and cock. I can’t see myself becoming effeminate. If it works for you, great, but I can see myself experiencing my freedoms and becoming more comfortable with my own sexuality.
Then a couple of days ago, I saw the most beautiful man. He was a professional in occupation and I was thinking probably European by his dress, in town on business. I couldn’t take my eyes off of him. He never glanced my way so nothing happened…except, that I started thinking again.
I have stumbled on mmf pornographic videos on the Internet and I am thrilled with my discovery. I plan on making my first trip to the video store probably this weekend to explore. Now, I’m just (carefully) looking forward to my next experience.
I can’t wait!
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