The whole problem is she doesn't want a relationship and I am a relationship oriented guy. She says she had a bad relationship and doesn't want to do the "domestic thing", because it changes everything and causes problems. I want to show affection like calling her hun and I get attitude for it (even though she slips and calls me pet names here and there). She also starts to act relationship oriented and when I reciprocate she bitches at me. Maybe I over analyze, but I also see things with her son (who is 3) she is very protective of him getting attached with guys. I have seen him go sit next to a guy and she snapped her fingers and said no and made him move. Yet I go over and he will jump right up on my lap with a toy and she is fine with it. This confuses me and I don't understand her intentions.
It's like she wants the relationship without the commitment or relationship behavior (unless she is doing it, like the pet names). She has also told me she sees another guy and has had sex with him at least a couple times since we have been seeing each other. In fact she tells me she doesn't even like this guy but he is good looking and she likes to have sex with him, calling him her "unboyfriend", so if he is the "unboyfriend" for sex I am the "unboyfriend" for day to day relationship/spending time together stuff. Yes we have had sex, but she wants me there to spend time with her and make out more then have sex. The whole thing makes me feel used and unappreciated (yes very much a girl statement, but it is what it is.) I don't like this situation but she drags me back in. Satan in a Sunday hat.
Didn't mean to turn my blog into a whining soapbox, but my intention was to tell you all about her (per my last blog) and things went south last night. So this is what the blog ended up being. Hopefuly in the future my blogs will be more about sexual exploits and the like. Much more entertaining to read.