That Saturday she came to see me and we talked. She told me we could could continue to see each other but she would be taking a step back. I took her out to eat and then we went back to my place and layed in my bed. She fell asleep in my arms and I lay there watching her until she woke up. She had a date that afternoon and left. She had agreed to come over Sunday to hang out and watch a movie and Sunday afternoon I got a text saying "How mad would you be if I decided I didn't want to come over." I responded with, "I figured as much."
I knew by this time that Sunday evening was her night with one of the other guys and I decided I wasn't going to sit home and dwell, so I went and stayed at Satan in a Sunday hats house. It helped a little but my thoughts were still on Desiree.
The next day at work Desi wouldn't even look at me. I eventually texted her and she told me she was just feeling "off" so I left her be. The next day was the same thing so I texted her and she responded "I told you to just give up."
Again she was saying we were done. I was a mess after that. All I thought about was her. I went to sleep thinking of her and dreamt of her and woke up with her on my mind. She had texted me at one point at work offering me Cheez-its as a peace offering. I told her to just leave me be so I could cope. I was hurting too much to appease her wanting to make herself feel better. A week later I texted her, telling her I missed her and she was constantly on my mind. Her response was less than nice. She said I couldn't tell her to leave me be and then go and text her with shit like that. She said "Don't ever text me again, don't even look at me at work." That was the last she spoke to me. I see her all the time of course and it kills me to do so. She was the one and I had lost her for good.... I will never meet someone so perfect for me.... even if I meet someone great they won't be as perfect.... that is my curse.... that is my destiny...