She says her pills for epilepsy cause a low sex drive which is true,I checked it out. But I often wonder if this is the only reason or if she has been unfaithful. Unfortunetly I have no evidence and for both of us I am sure the opportunity has arisen more than once. For myself I can recall one time with a collegue where it very well could have been a hot sex night. But I did not pick up the signals which she was sending.
There is another time when a friend invited me over to her house. We worked late and had early start next morning. I mentioned I wished i had somewhere here to stay instead of driving home. It is only 20 minutes but that makes 40 in total. She said I could stay at her house, wear her husbands pjs and sleep on his side of the bed. I thought about ti, my other half was working night shift but for whatever reason I decided to go home. I am kicking myself now as it may have been a sexual night. I will never know unless I ask her,which I have yet to do. But it is also possible she just wanted someone to comfort her and just share the bed. The thing I always think about is what kind of bed was it. I have only glimpsed the bedroom and only seen bunk beds up there.
I still fantasize about here and even imagine that I am making love to her when my other half and make love. Is that normal?