Posted by Mr. Sweet , Mon Oct 03, 2011 09:38 PM
As this Monday, 3 October, 2011 draws to a close and I prepare for another week of undertakings in the college circuit, with the weight and stress of an extensive research paper and the schematic of how this paper is going to be configured, to me, it does not come to my shock and surprise that I find myself meticulously composing my ninth blog submission, on SexForums. Quite frankly, the blog system is wonderful in that it is department in which one can express their most deepest and truest of emotions, unobstructed by the opposition of one who simply wishes not to hear such. During the duration of time in which I have been a participant of this website, even though it has been a very small spectrum of time, I have seemingly and astoundingly learned very much about the website and how its members operate, collectively. I am trying to find the most appropriate quadrant of my mind to begin speaking of my experiences as a one-week member. I want to ensure that I both conduct and express myself in as fluent and coherent a manner feasible. Undoubtedly, it is a challenge in and of itself for one to be recognize and commended, if applicable, on a website that operates on the condition of establishing a membership, where seniority is a paramount component and you must ascend the stairs, thereby holding the title of that caliber.
If I had to state my primary reason for creating this very entry for submission, I would say unto you that while it is to wholeheartedly express all that I am reluctant, afraid or ashamed to disclose in the very active and excitatory chatrooms as well as to accrue more points in the hopes to increase my reputation and to validate my the notion that I am a sweet, kind and cordial gentlemen, the aforementioned is certainly not the precedent. How very terrible this is; I feel as though my words are fragmented, such that the subject of my blog is unclear and questionable. I do apologize for this, but that having been said, I have such an urge by the inclinations of the all might ego to express the tears, the at times, agonzing emotional pain, the frustration, periodic bouts of depression and by a sad admission thoughts of suicide, though not concrete, but theoretical. I am very sorry that you just had to acknowledge that truth about myself; however, this very feeling was frequent and prominent with the other two sex-related websites that I partook in, one that I admittedly do at current. Due to the general dislike of my presence and the way that I carry myself there, rarely do I visit it. Protocol does not permit me to disclose the name of the website, thus this piece of data shall be withheld. If it is any consolation, as I posited on another social-networking website, 'those persons express their opposition and where applicable, their repugnance towards me, for the wrong reasons. Their presumptions of how I operate are based merely on unverifed, prejudged rhetoric. One member had even gumptiously, arrogantly and rudely gone to the length to denote me with one of the most nastiest, unacceptable and hurtful words ever to be assigned to anybody. He had said, and I paraphrase, 'you are an extremely egotistical person that is just a waste of time and space on this planet'. As I sadly expressed to a member in a chatroom this afternoon, whose name I shall not speak of, his hurtful words had rendered me 'depressed and diverted throughout the entire day'. ;,,( I felt horribly rotten, at the hands of a sexually-obsessed and highly immature man of an older stature, all due respect to all persons on this website, who are older. And on the other hand, I wanted to confront him immediately and tell him what for. In no way, was his conduct nor remark justified. You must look into your hearts and soul purposefully, ladies and gentlemen, so that you might be able to fully comprehend and express sympathy for that predicament, from an emotional standpoint. It was without question, the most-heartshattering moment of my young life, such that my self-esteem had was almost compromised and it almost was imploded from the inside out. You must truly know, how severly I was affected by this. However, I wish not to detract from that, which I am going to discuss in the proceeding paragraph. That being, my early evaluation of my accounts and experiences on this website. There shall be very much to say.
I have prescribed to SexForums for a full week now and I would synopsize my emotions for that very first week as ineffable frustration and disappointment, while having been the wrongful recipient of ignorance and disregard, I believe sometimes intentionally. Of course, I fully acknowledge that much time, possibly even months will be required for me to have been fully acclimated with and "loved" by this website, so to speak. From a realistic standpoint, I would only hope that, that not be true and the level of comfort and satisfaction is instilled in a shorter time period. Certainly granted, that I am slowly becoming more and more acquainted with a wonderfully-sweet woman, again, whose name I shall not disclose out of respect, I can make no other conclusion that I am plagued very much on SexForums, which is preventing me from enjoying and enduring that wonderful and lovely feeling that I had hoped for. Still, to this very day, it is the directionality that I lacked and not knowing how I should start engaging in converstions. Making attempts in the chatrooms has yielded to frustration on the grounds that some of the members seemingly wish not to welcome the incoming members. So many time I have tried, just to utter a simple and friendly 'Hello', the product has been nothing. Based upon my observations, if a member is "sexually intoxicated" or engaging in a conversation with somebody else, they are the precedent. Ultimately, I just wish to find my niche within this colossal website, comprised of a diverse network of persons of varying statures, and thereafter acquire friends, friends who will acknowledge my presence and do everything in their feasible power to make me feel comfortable. I have two friends actually, who have met these credentials beautifully and sufficiently and it is my pleasure to know them. :)
It is my wish that I happened upon many more of similar overhaul. I had stated that my next objective, is to chat with a girl / woman of 18 to 26 years. Sadly, this has not yet occurred and I honestly fear that it is futile. I must question myself as to why every other guy can seemingly "lure" the girl in and their "conversations" advance with relative ease. I have seen elements of cybersex taking place on gallery wall pages. And to be very honest with you, a sharp feeling of depression is induced at the sight of such, for I hope that one day I too, will be able to partake in such innocent, sexy, silly, fun If ever I happen upon a girl who will consent to such. After having been unfairly blocked by a girl, who I was very cordial and polite to, I must say, that the process to begin cyber interactivity with a girl is a phenomenon to me. A phenomenon, which I hope in due time, will be rendered as discernible to me. I am inclined to believe that I must attone and simplify my profile page or that I must supply visuals for the quizzical girl. So many questions remain seemingly unanswered, so many cuties that I wish to flirt with and make them smile. I easily could list a name of them, so cute, adorable, sexy, tempting and kissable on their sweet lips. :) Despite that my beginning days on SexForums have not superseded my expectations, I am still sad, but ever hopeful that it will change for the better. General chatting is the precedent, webcam and cybersex is the hope and would be wonderful. :) Furthermore, do you acknowledge that my username 'SweetButNaughty', for clarification, implies the following: an absolute sweetheart on the outside with a naughty, horny (please kindly excuse the term) man with sexual urges, who yearns for that delicious feeling on the inside. Applying the concept of the unconscious mind, the "Sweet" component of my username represents the superego and "Naughty", the ego. Therefore, I exhibit maximum comfort while operating with the sweet phase as oppose to the latter. :) Thank you.
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