they always want someone with no Baggage or who makes a lot of money. That sort of thing. People tell me I have to act confident. But how do you show self confidence you don't really feel? Even my grandfather, who in his 70's, was computer illiterate, was able to find his second wife online! I've tried posting on a couple of sites, with pretty much the same results. After all the rejection and failure in my life, I'm convinced that I'm a worthless, fat, ugly, loser. I'm a real person, with REAL emotions. In life, we live, we love, we hate, we fornicate, and eventually, we die.
Along the way, if we are lucky, really, Really, lucky, we find someone(or several someones) who make the journey a little less painful, more enjoyable. But for the rest, the less fortunate ones(like me), we experience only rejection, misery, loneliness, and abuse. We go through the motions, more existing than living.
We grow to hate Thanksgiving, Christmas, and any other family or love oriented holidays. We seethe inside with jealousy, and envy when we see all the happy families around Christmas, and are disgusted by all the love birds on Valentine's day. Eventually, we die. Usually in an unmarked grave, because there is nobody who will claim the body. There is nobody who will shed a tear, or notice our passing, or celebrate our life. I'm guessing that anybody who bothers to read this, does know or has met someone like me.
And chances are, you gave them no second thought. There are so many like me, the unloved, undesirable. The ones no woman finds attractive. We become the creepy old man featured in so many erotic stories. You know, the one the young hot women always think is a freak cause he keeps to himself and never has any friends. Anyhow, I doubt anybody will bother to respond to this blog, other than to tell me how much of a downer I am. I am not expecting it to suddenly get me any romantic responses either. I just needed someplace to let it out. To put my feelings to print.