Marty introduced me to his son and family as a friend. I guess that’s what I was expecting even though in my mind I sort of hoped he would have said girlfriend, but I understand why he didn’t say that. I didn’t need to talk to him about it, I’m smart enough to know that there are more reasons then just being worried about what people will think, so even though I had hoped in a small way he would have said girlfriend, I’m ok that he didn’t.
There were nine of us up there the first night, which made for sort of a crowded cabin, but after dinner the next day one of the wives went home (she wasn’t a hunter). So after that there was two couples, Marty, myself, his son, and one other guy. Everyone was pretty cool and friendly, even with me being shy, they all seemed to go out of there way to make me feel welcome.
I guess I halfway expected Marty’s son not to like me, but it wasn’t that way at all. Even though I think he figured out that Marty and I were a little bit more then friends, he seemed real cool with me. I think Marty wanted to introduce me to his son first, because it seemed like he might be much more easy-going then most people. And if things between Marty and me do get real serious, I think it might be him that levels things out with the rest of the family.
Anyway, not much really happened, we didn’t get up there until real late Friday night, and for the most part just got out stuff into the cabin and went to bed (and yes I had my own room). The next morning Marty woke me up about an hour before the sun came up, every one seemed tired and were moving slow. After we got dressed (Marty and one of the other wives making sure I had what I needed to stay warm) we went out into the woods. We walked for about a mile, Marty got me settled into a stand, and then after telling me that he would be in ear shot of me, he headed a little deeper into the woods. I sat up there half the day just watching red squirrels chasing each other around, and listening to the wind move through the trees. It’s hard to explain, it was boring, but at the same time it was kind of relaxing and therapeutic just sitting there out in the middle of the woods.
I was able to do a lot of thinking and self reflecting. I have been talking to Mr. & Mrs. Fire_Crotch here on SF.com, and I guess while out there I thought a lot about some of the things they had to say, and also things April and I talked about. (To put it short) I tend to be hard on myself (low self esteem), I’m always comparing myself to people around me and in my mind I never measure up. I tend to blame a lot of it on my past or environment, never feeling like I have ever been given a chance to get anyplace in my life, or actually feeling like most of the time the people around me (parents, ex-boyfriends) were actually working against me. But I think now, thanks to April, Jake, and now even maybe Marty, I can now get out from under the weight of my past and move on with my life to something much better then it has been. I don’t know what that is yet, but I do know that I do want April, Jake, and Marty to be a part of it, what ever it may be.
Anyway, about halfway through the first day Marty came back to ask me how I was doing, if I was cold or hungry yet and wanted to go back and to warm up and get something to eat. I was actually doing pretty good, my toes were a little cold, but I wasn’t hungry at all and didn’t really want to go back to the cabin yet. I told him I was doing fine and that if he wanted to go back then I would, but I was cool with staying out there the rest of the day if he didn’t want to go back. I did walk with him back to where he was sitting (so I could get my toes to warm up), then after a couple of hugs and kiss’s I went back to the stand I was sitting on for the rest of the day. He did tell me that if I got to bored I could always come over to his stand. But I didn’t want to mess up any chance he might have to get a deer and I was ok so I just staid were I was until he walked back to me just after sunset and we headed back to the cabin together.
It turned out that none of us saw any deer, they said it was probably to windy and the deer weren’t moving. I helped the other women fix dinner and after the guys cleaned up and did the dishes we wound up playing cards and other games until it was time to go to bed. I did get Marty to slip me a kiss before I went to bed, but I don’t think anyone saw it.
The Sunday was pretty much the same thing, except for Marty and I switching stands, and the guys did the cooking that night (which was funny to watch, not that any of them couldn’t cook, they just made a show of it, joking back and forth and playing small pranks on each other). Oh yea, and one of the guys did get two deer right before sunset, he said he saw the deer, shot, it dropped out of his sight so he thought he got it, but then it showed up again so he took another shot. When he walked over to where he shot there were two deer laying there. Anyway that night I was tired so I think I was the first to head to bed. The goofy thing is that even though I was tired I couldn’t get to sleep for anything. I really don’t know how long I laid there tossing back and forth trying to get to sleep, I do know it had been a couple of hours and I was sure everyone else already when to bed because the cabin was quiet. A little while after that, (I was half a sleep) I heard my door open. It was so dark I couldn’t see my hand in front of my face much less who was at my door, but I couldn’t imagine it being anyone other then Marty. He came up to the bed, pulled the blankets up and got in with me. I still couldn’t see and even though I didn’t think it would be anyone else, I still had a small doubt and needed to know for sure. I started to say something but he just softly said “ssshhh” and told me he couldn’t sleep, and I knew for sure then that it was Marty. Then he just wrapped his arm around me and snuggled up to me. I was honestly expecting something more to happen, but he didn’t do anything, he didn’t put his hand under my shirt, he didn’t try to pull my panties off, he didn’t even try to kiss me, he didn’t do anything other then hug me closer to him. I was a little bit at a loss, but at the same time (even though I would have been just fine if he wanted to have sex), it made my heart swell. It made me feel so good inside that because he couldn’t sleep that he decided to come and lay with me. After a few minutes of just laying there like that (feeling so warm and happy inside) I leaned over and kissed him. He still didn’t try to start anything, I sort of thought about starting something, but then just decided to roll back over onto my side and enjoy the feeling of him there with me. It didn’t take long after that, cuddling in sort of a spooning position, my back pressed to his chest, his legs under my butt, and his arm wrapped around me, that we both fell a sleep.
When I woke up Monday morning I was sort of sad that he wasn’t still there with me, but I pushed that feeling out by just remembering how happy I felt by just being able to fall a sleep in his arms. Anyway, Monday wasn’t too much different other then we did come back to the cabin around noon to pack up our things and load them into the truck. Then after getting a little bit to eat we went back out into the woods again until dark. We didn’t stay for dinner since we still had a five hour drive before we got back to his house, instead we stopped at a McDonalds drive-up to get something.
It was almost midnight when we got back into town, he would have brought me home then if I wanted him to, but I decided to stay at his place instead. He had to go back into town that morning anyway, so I didn’t want to have to make him make another trip, (that and I just wanted to be with him). When we got to his house, he wanted to check on a few things to do with the farm. While he was doing that I unloaded a few things from the truck and brought them into the house, then went and took a shower (It had been three days, no running water at the cabin). Then after drying off, I though about putting on a night shirt, but since I normally sleep naked, and since the only other person here was Marty I decided not to. I got into bed and waited a little bit for him to come back, but I guess I wound up just falling a sleep. I didn’t wake up until I heard him come out of the bathroom after he had taken a shower also. I just laid there lazily watching him dry himself off and then get into bed with me, also not wearing anything. As soon as he laid down and pulled the covers over both of us I cuddled up to him pressing my breast to his chest and resting my head on his arm. A few minutes later we were both sleeping.
I don’t know what time it was when I woke up, but I was really happy he was still there with me. I laid there happily for a long time just listening to him breath. When he finely woke up I snuggled up closer to him and put my arm on his chest and said good morning. He took a deep breath and blinked his eyes a little bit, but after he cleared his head, he hugged me tight and said “yes it is a good morning”.
It dawned on me then, that we went the whole night, both of us sleeping together naked, and we hadn’t had sex. I figured the night before at the cabin, he might not have tried to because he didn’t want to take the chance of making to much noise and someone finding out. But now we were alone at his house and he still wasn’t trying to do anything.
He looked over at the clock and then asked me something about having to watch April and Jakes kids. I told him I should probably be home by 8:30 and it would be ok, so we had some time. And then we just laid there for a while, I figured that after I told him we had some time that he would start kissing me or start something, but he didn’t. I think he would have been completely happy laying there like that until I had to go.
After a few minutes I finely asked him if he wanted to have sex. I expected him to say yes, (I’ve never been in bed with someone that said no) instead he said that we didn’t have to. I’ll admit I was a little taken back when he said that, I almost thought he might not want to which kind of hurt, but when he hugged me closer that feeling went away. So after that I asked him don’t you want to have sex? He said “sure, but only if I wanted to”. So then I asked him what if I wanted to, as I reached my hand down his chest, over his belly, and softly tickled the hair around his penis. He didn’t say another word, he just pulled me up to him and started kissing me. And again, just like the first night I was with him, we made love. He was so soft and caring with me, it was so beautiful and wonderful feeling. He made me climax three times before he finely cam inside me and I had one last huge orgasm.
We had totally lost track of time, so we didn’t have time to take a shower after that, instead we hurried to get dressed, and he brought me home in time for April to go to work.
And that’s pretty much everything that happened over the weekend, it was good, and despite still feeling a little wore out from it all, I’m feeling really happy (a deep happiness). So much so I can hardly keep from smiling all the time.
Just a side note: I just want to say this, I really think Marty would have been totally happy if we hadn’t had sex, which I can’t say about any other guy I have ever known. And the reason why I wanted to have sex with him wasn’t because I was worried he wouldn’t want me if I didn’t, but instead it was because I really wanted to deep down in my heart. I really feel like I am in love with him, and I want to share that with him and for him to be apart of me. It’s hard to explain really what I’m feeling, I just want us to be one and when we make love, it’s the closest or easiest way to feel that way.