Which brings me to what happened last night. I hadn't seen him in a week, but he offered to come over after work and after a phone call from his parents. And when he got here, we kissed and cuddled a bit, but before things got any steamier, he said he had to ask me something. Then he asked what would happen if I, for example, met someone amazing and fell for him. What would happen with me and Pierre, would I stop seeing him in favor of a new guy. And I said...probably not, because I was happy to just have him. He said "but we're not dating", so I said "I wasn't going to bring this up now, but I just have to ask....do you see anything ever happening with us...like this becoming more than just friends or friends with benefits? Can you ever see yourself being in a relationship with me?" He replied that he had thought about it, but he could see little things that might cause us to not work out in the long run. Basically, he wants to be very sure of things working before even getting into a relationship with anyone, like practically to the point where he knows he wants to end up with the person. I was pretty hurt and disappointed, because I felt that he was overthinking it and that I really wished he would just give me a chance and see where it went (and I told him so). He just said that he didn't really see it working out, but he agreed to continue to consider it and that he will let me know what he decides at some point in the future. (We discussed it in a lot more depth, but this is already getting really long, so I can clarify or provide more details if anyone wants). Anyway, so this basically leaves me chewing my nails and waiting around for him to make a decision on whether he wants to be in a relationship with me or not. Which is really really hard. I know I could just tell him that this is too hard and I can't wait around for him, but I already said I WOULD wait for him because I didn't want to push him, and that it was worth it to me to have the chance to be with him.
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