What matters in life? To me its always been friendship and love. While I have no real close friends here physically, I've developed many close bonds of friendship online. It makes me wonder, why can I make such good friends online, but not in real life? I'm nothing but my real self online, a little flirtier, but thats about it. Why? Because I've always thought it's just better to be yourself, and I make great connections that way. So why doesn't this happen IRL? Is it because they see me face to face? Am I too...offputting to be liked? I dunno. Perhaps, I really can't say.
Then there's the other thing. Love. I've been terribly unlucky with it IRL, so what about online? Can feelings developed for a person online be trusted? I've never had those kinds of feelings for someone before, so I cant say. So should I give it a go? Try, online dating? It would be a LDR no doubt, I can't find a man in Australia willing to date me. Whose to say anyone overseas would want me either? My head says be careful, my heart says you won't know unless you try. Do I want a LDR? I don't really know. Do I want someone in my life who cares about me just that little more, who loves me? Yes. How do I get it? I don't know.
It's so confusing. Am I just being hopeful? Is there really love out there for everyone? Or is it just wishful thinking of a hopeluess romantic trying to fill that little gap in her life. I have a lot of love to give, I just want someone to share it with