The weather outside is cloudy and rainy, almost like I'm feeling inside.... Down and lonely and sad. Went to the market in town today with my little sister. Walked around there not that much to see. Got bored after a while. I was gonna go and meet a guy I've been texting with, but then I didn't have the guts to go and say hi. He sold some candy and stuff there. but I didn't go there, just saw him from a distance.... I felt so miserable afterwards crying in the car. I hate being so shy sometimes. Some people on the net say like, but you're not shy! But it's different in real life.... It's easier to write than talk. I've always been quiet. should try and change but it's bloody hard.
oh well.... bought some chocolate maybe I'll feel a little better soon.