With this 40th entry I am looking back on all of the entries I have made. I can honestly say that I looked forward to writing each one. I am an early morning writer, so many of these were written right after I got out of bed early in the day. There were many mornings when I would roll over at 4AM and think to myself … now how could I describe that fantatsic thing that she did to me last night, or how could I describe how she looked or how she felt or what I was feeling at the moment it happened. Many times, the responses that I came up with would force me out of bed at 4 AM to come down here to my writing corner and get it down in words before I forgot it. This blog has been a both a chronicle of my sexual life and a real motivator for me to express my sexual self.
But what is it about this blog that has provided me with such motivation? I have been motivated before ….most notably with dieting for my health. That is understandable as the alternative was death; that was easy to explain. But this blog is about life and ecstasy; what is it about this blog that has caused me to be so motivated? Some of the answers to that question are scattered among the various blog entries; I would like to use this milestone entry to pull them all together in one place, reflect on them and share my thoughts with you.
It is often said the biggest sex organ in the human body is the brain. I sincerely believe that. Sex for me has always started in my brain, ultimately finding its expression in my mouth, hands, penis, balls, nipples and prostate. All of those organs and appendages provided the relief from sexual tension, allowing me to experience the frenetic – desperate rise and gratifying release that orgasm brings.
I used the word desperate a lot in this blog; the tension that expresses itself in my cock and prostate as sexual tension rises can only be described as desperate. The word divine agony comes to mind as well, there is a website named something along those lines. That is an apt description of growing arousal . . . as the sensation builds in my body and my cock stiffens and lengthens, I feel an agonizingly exquisite desperation growing inside of me. My pulse quickens, my cock becomes hypersensitive and I can feel my prostate swelling leading up to a pulsing orgasm. When it lets go it feels like that ejaculate brings the exquisite agony with it as it pulses out of my cock. Orgasm makes my white thick secretion jet out of me in thick ropes, then it slows to intermittent weak drooling pulses and eventually a dribble.
The thing that I learned many years ago is that the longer I retain sensual feelings, and savor them, rolling them around inside of me, the more delightful those sensual feelings become. It is comparable to the way a wine connoisseur rolls a fine wine around in her mouth, the longer it is savored the richer it tastes. This blog has allowed me to embrace my sexual experiences and the feelings behind them and roll them around in my mind after they have happened. The act of savoring these sensual experiences allows me to relish the depth and the richness of them, in essence enjoying them over and over again. Testimony to this is my wet pants after I finish writing one.
In me, sex is a steam train that once it is going is (hopefully) relentlessly rolling forward as I enjoy the multiple sensations; it eventually delivers me to an orgasmic conclusion. This blog has allowed me to record the trip, the deep sensual feelings of the ride, savor them and experience them over and over again. Each entry has allowed me to recall the nuance of the pleasure I experienced along the way. These entries allowed me to retrieve memories of the tingling sensation on my cockhead as orgasm and the hot bliss of ejaculation was imminent, or the hot red blush of her peach as her arousal grew. They allowed me to recall the vision of her vaginal canal and the mouth of her pussy as it swelled and opened from the stimulation of my tongue on her hardening clit. I have been able to relive the mouth feel of her wet silky vaginal lips on my tongue and the sweet taste of her honey as it rolled out of her reddened - pulsing vagina as she shuddered in orgasm.
These entries have allowed me to slow down and think about her experience of sex; at the same time they allowed me to share the ecstatic sexual feelings she was having as she was having them. She is a reserved person; she is not given to spontaneous expression. I have learned over the years to look at her and read what she is feeling by her actions and expressions. This blog has deepened that ability in me. These entries have recorded my observations of her as she is experiencing sensual and sexual bliss; they have encouraged me to think about and celebrate what she is feeling in her vagina, her nipples and her belly as she experiences my sensual stimulation of her intimate parts. Her signals have always been a joy for me to observe. As I observed them I have learned to experience her joy vicariously which has been a warm and wonderful feeling. I enjoy them for what they do to her but at the same time it is incredibly arousing for me. This blog has allowd me to remember them in detail.
In the entries I can recall the intense look in her eyes with her building arousal. It is a look of amazement and wonder as her orgasm reveals itself; I can see the desperate look in her face as she feels the burning – searing heat of it as it glows deep inside her sex. Her arousal is a glowing ember buried deep inside her vagina that is so burning hot, it scorches her delicate inner flesh and ignites her soul. As it ignites her soul, it causes her to loose control of her own body, forcing her to give into the bliss and ecstasy that pending orgasm unleashes. I recall that innocent open expression of the growing joy on her face as arousal embraces her genitals, and reveals itself in her eyes. I can envision the amazement in her eyes as they reveal the look of desperate panic as her orgasm swells to the point of cresting. It is a look that says I am feeling something that is exquisitely erotic and intensely beautiful deep inside my pussy, my brain is struggling to experience it, it feels so good. At the same time this feeling in my pussy is so profound and out of my control that my body is having a hard time coping with it as it drills into me.
I have recalled the vision of her body giving into orgasm. A sensation that is so full and overwhelming that it finally crests and takes control of her, gripping her pussy and squeezing the bliss out of it in its agonizingly delightful grip; ultimately at this point her body surrenders totally. She has no choice but to let it rip through her as it contracts her nipples, and causes her anus to convulse and twitch and forces the deepest recesses of her feminine hole to spasm in exquisite tension and release. The orgasm extracts mind numbing sensations from all over her body. As the orgasm drills through her, it effects every nerve and orifice on her body, her face is contorted in the overwhelming sensations that she is experiencing; her eyes are expressing the unimaginably desperate and delightful feelings that are radiating from her heated sex and rippling across her skin causing her heart to race and her fists to clench.
This blog gives me the excuse to think of the way that she looses control of her own body and mind as her arousal gives way to convulsive joy and relief. The combination of the look in her eyes and the loss of body control are the sexiest things that I have recalled in these entries. As the swelling wave of her arousal encircles her clit, forcing it to harden and erect itself, and causes her nipples to harden, her pussy will weep the honey of her pending orgasm. When her body sends these sensations to her brain, her conscious ability to hide her fantasies and secrets disappears. Her darkest sexual thoughts are now out in the open and she shares them with me. She tells me of the men that we know that she has imagined fucking her, of the feeling of a personal friends penis in her mouth throbbing as it empties his sweet juice on her tongue, or the time that she told me that she thought about fingering a co workers asshole because his butt was so beautiful as she noticed his expensive pants clinging to the curve of his ass.
I recalled the many times I witnessed her surrender to the erotic demands of her vagina in orgasm. The stiffening of her body, her decidedly unladylike and very sexy - explosive curses as orgasm slammed into her feminine hole, exploding on impact. I relished the the memory of her pushing my face into her vagina and humping my face as the waves of orgasmic bliss washed into her body and exited through her vagina, coming out as pearlescent girl cum.
But this blog has done even more. It has allowed me to share a very intimate and personal part of me with the women on this site. I certainly love my wife, she is my partner. But I have always needed female connections beyond those with my wife.
I love the way women look, feel, and smell. Moreover I love the way women think and respond. When I talk to a woman I know well I feel a need to hug and be hugged and to give a kiss of affection and admiration on the cheek.
But sharing my erotic experiences and narrating the intimate details of my sexuality with women I meet in person woman is very difficult. I have never done it until now. This blog has allowed me to strip away any sense of anxiety, embarrassment, shame or shyness and expose my sensual and sexual side to women that I know on this site. Sharing my sexual experiences and thoughts with you all, women whose own nude bodies and minds are now familiar to me is a profoundly moving experience as well as being deeply arousing. It has allowed me to express things that are intensely personal; the act of writing some of the things I have written is the first time I have acknowledged the feelings that I have.
This site has allowed me to define a unique and new connection to all of you women on this site. You have seen my bare body in arousal and in innocent nudity. The act of sharing that barest visual essence of me with you has been very erotic for me. This blog however has allowed me to share something exponentially more erotic with you . . . my sexual soul. Everything in this blog has happened and you have read about it, in essence experiencing the sensations vicariously as I have described them. But in my expression of these experiences I have also shared something else deeply intimate to me that is my emotions, and my feelings of things that are the foundation of my sensual self as I experienced them. In essence I have exposed a very secret side of me with you. It has made me feel vulnerable and excited at the same time. It has also established an amazing closeness and connection to women that I have never met. That has been very sexy and arousing for me.
The last thing that this blog has done as I wrote it is that it has allowed me to vicariously enjoy the experience of having sex with each one of you women that is reading this. When my tongue was boring into my wife’s vagina or when I was boring her pussy with my iron hard penis as I pushed her over the edge to orgasm, I was experiencing her and her body and the joy of my connection to her at that time.
But I discovered early on in this blogging process that as I was writing these entries I was transposing the feelings that I was having with her to all of you as I was writing. It was like I was fucking you all or eating your pussies or kissing you all as I was writing. So in effect these entries are expressions of what I thought it would feel like for me to be fucking, sucking and relishing the wonderful warm sexual women that I have met on this site ……. Duchess, Foxy, Dot, Mel, Luv Bug, Pan, Jewelz, and Kinky and others whose names escape me at this moment.
You ladies are the erotic and sensual inspiration for these entries. I have enjoyed the vicarious sensuality that you have provided me and the expression of my sexuality returned to you in these entries. That is why I have been so motivated.
Thanks to all of you.
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