I'm 20 years old and have never had a girlfriend. For various reasons, I guess, the opposite sex generally does not make advances towards me...let alone show the slightest bit of interest. Recently I just got over crushing on my roommate (a female) and am surprisingly happy about it. I'm happy because I knew I'd never have her and I knew she didn't want me. We are civil. I don't know, probably won't, if we'll become real friends but we look at each other and smile amiably now without me feeling sick to my stomach because I know I'll never be in a favorable light of intimacy with her. The funny thing is that...it's okay with me now. A small part of me is still longing but after realizing that...she's just not the kind of gal I would truly want to be with...everything's okay now. I can live my life and focus on what's most important. And on the side, I can come on here and not give thought to my former crush.