i should have posted last night but it worked out for the best yesterday morning all i did was curl up in her bed and hold her. she said she was sorry and understands how she has hurt me. she pritty much forced me to have sex with her lol. at first we tried using the female condoms that did not work some reason it would not open up at all i dont know who has used them but i think if we try again i need lube on my penis first. she trough the female condom out of her and just forced me in to her vagina. She is not on any birth control so i asked why she was doing this and she said because she wanted it and knew i wanted it and she trusted me to tell her to get off needless to say with no sex for 4 weeks i did not last long i did not even get her but she didnt care and she got off of me with plenty of time. today we laid in bed for 2-3 hours just cuddling not pant and then went for a hike nice relaxing day.