Later after I was married solo sex combined with fucking took the edge off but even the combination never slaked my sexual thirst completely. Sex with J was wonderful to establish intimacy and although the orgasms were pleasant, they were uneven in sensation and still cock centered. During this time I came to appreciate that making love to her was more of a psychological experience that allowed me to savor our intimacy and have an emotional bond with her more than have a profoundly satisfying experience of orgasm. It made for a phenomenal relationship and a marriage that has endured but it didn’t satisfy that deep seeded hunger I had for profound sexual experience.
Mid way through my forties, I began to hear the refrain of that sixties tune that Peggy Lee sang called: “Is This All There Is?” I went into my forties with a desperate sexual curiosity and a deep hunger; I hoped there was more to sex than what I experienced to that point. That was when my journey began.
If my forties could be characterized as a time of sexual awakening and learning, then my fifties became a time of discovering and experiencing my sexuality. One of the first computer games I bought my kids was an Apple based discovery game called Myst. Myst was an elaborate journey of discovery. When you entered the world on the computer screen, you entered a place of quiet mystery and ethereal elegance that begged your curiosity to seek more and uncovered what was down each path and behind every door.
My sex life at 44 was like that game of Myst. I found the long sought out door; when I opened it, it gave me a glimpse of my seething sexuality. However like Myst, the ethereal glimpse of my sexuality was only a small vision of what it really was. What I saw intrigued me and inspired me.
Ultimately in my mid fifties I found the golden fleece of my sexuality, it was prostate orgasm and Male Multiple Orgasm (MMO). With the experience of MMO I entered Shangri La and I was rewired. Being rewired is the name prostate pleasure achievers have given to the paradigm shift that I just described as going into Shangri La.
Rewiring translated me; instead of being aroused I experienced the erotic and sensual world around me in a state of hypersexuality. In real terms I became a sensual man whose experience of sex and the erotic and non erotic world that surrounded me through a sensual lens. My experience of sexual pleasure slowed from a screaming wail to a low resonant Gregorian Chant. In that resonantly introspective chant a strong and expansive bridge between my mind and body was formed.
That bridge has revealed to me a slowed, more expansive and more acute experience of sexual pleasure. Sex for me is now a more complex and complete experience. Sexual pleasure now bonds profound physical sensation with acutely perceptive mental awareness.
My physical orgasmic response now is vested in other parts of my body other than my cock. I have become permanently responsive to non-penile forms of stimulation; my prostate, perineum, nipples, anus and rectum are all part of my sexual response system now. I am in an elevated state of sensual awareness all the time, 24/7. When I witness a particularly erotic vision or thought I experience a vivid sense of tingling and well-being in my pelvis, and my anus that may cause my cock to harden and maybe it won’t.
As I said earlier I now have Male Multiple Orgasms without cumming. These orgasms consist of chains of hundreds of orgasmic spasms with accompanying euphoric ecstasy that can last for up to three hours. Initially these were induced through the use of prostate massagers. However, in the last three years I have developed the skill to amplify orgasmic sensation without penetration. I can now trigger spontaneous pleasure and non-ejaculatory multiple orgasms very easily using mental imagery, muscular control, nipple stimulation, breathing techniques and meditation.
I now live every day with an overall increase in sexual sensitivity, even when I am not in sexual situations. Arousal is not a one time response; I have what is known as “Day-After Effects” following an MMO session. These effects may include sensual tingling of my anal tract with a simple erotic thought, or the experience of spontaneous orgasms during the course of a day in response to being relaxed and immersed in a sensual environment or thoughts.
My sexual performance has improved. When I have sex now my cock is just as hard as it was 30 years ago but my control is much stronger. I can avoid cumming as long as I need to and when I cum I literally piss cum in ropes.
Prior to being rewired I experienced arousal in my cock exclusively on my cockhead. Now my entire penis is engaged in arousal; an erection causes intense erotic warmth and pulsing to resonate from my cock root and penile bulb deep in my abdomen all along my shaft to my cockhead. My frenular cleft (the underside of my cockhead) has become profoundly sensitive to pressure, as opposed to the past when friction was my major means of stimulation. Gentle pressure of my frenular cleft in the warm skin of J’s derriere or pussy will induce waves of intensely pleasurable MMO’s. Beyond the sensitivity of my cock my perineum, anus and nipples have become triggers for orgasm.
When I have MMO type orgasms and experience deep pelvic and anal bliss my cock doesn’t have to be hard; it will go from stone rigid to flaccid to semi erect to flaccid again during the course of a 90 minute to 3 hour MMO session. Although my pelvis and my anal tract and nipples dominate in the experience of MMO derived sexual pleasure I do have prickly and pleasurable sensations throughout my cock during MMO even if it is flaccid.
Perhaps the most significant shift in my sexual response is the additional dimension of sexual pleasure that is prostate and anal tract centered. The same blissful tension that I experience when my cock gets hard, I now experience when my prostate gets hard. I feel that sweet desperation of arousal in the stiffening of my prostate deep inside my anal tract. Those pleasurable sensations happen deep within my anal tract and on my perineum acupressure point, halfway between my balls and anus.
When experiencing elevated erotic feelings I will get rippling, creeping sensations just inside my anus. If I feed those sensations with additional stimuli they grow and expand into extremely pleasurable spasms of my anus and perineum. If I feed them further by breathing with them and projecting erotic fantasies in my mind those spasms grow to wave like orgasmic contractions that extend deep into my anal canal creating the pumping ecstasy of an orgasm without the cum.
In my hypersexual state erotic thoughts, a vision of a sexy woman or chat here on line will induce a flow of precum that is so copious that I typically will need to line my underpants to prevent soaking through and embarrassing myself.
Perhaps the most profound impact of being hypersexual has been on my relationship with J. The mental connection I have with her when we make love has been amplified ten fold. The connection between the mental and the physical pleasure that we both experience has been amplified through a simple practice of open eyed sex. With the physical connection of my cock deep inside her vagina, spreading her pussy mouth open and allowing her vaginal canal to experience the deeply gratifying sensation of sucking on my cockhead our eyes lock and the experience of sensing what we are both feeling is communicated. That sharing brings together the physical and mental pleasure of fucking and makes it into a profoundly sensual and intimately psychological experience.
Recently I have also been able to convert MMO sessions from solitary experiences to shared experiences. Four times since January I have been able to have MMO’s in her pussy. These internal MMO’s have been profoundly emotional events for me. On the last one it was so intense and moving that I was brought to tears.
The most wondrous aspect of rewiring has been the expansion of awareness and patience that it has given me relative to J’s sexual needs. In the first half of our intimate life, I was not always the most effective lover. I tried hard but I didn’t really understand her orgasmic response very well and I clearly missed the mind body connection that is central to her orgasmic pleasure. Because prostate orgasm in me is akin to her experience of orgasm I now can more fully understand her experience of sexual pleasure and I can accommodate it better. Even more than accommodating I can now coax her to experience such profound orgasms that she can barely cope with them. These crushing orgasms that she now has are not necessarily all from fucking, many are from oral sex.
I have always loved performing oral sex on her but my patient skill at stimulating the full landscape of her vulva and my awareness of her sexual response, has turned cunnilingus from a hit or miss experience to an intimate stimulation of the glans of her clit and its extensions around her pussy mouth and tender and expert massage of the inside of her vaginal canal. My skilled manipulation of the sensual opening that is the thresh hold to her sexual soul makes her scream in agonized ecstasy.
So here I find myself at sixty two…. a hypersexual man. I find myself in the ironic position of being at my sexual prime in the autumn of my life. While I kick myself that I didn’t get to where I am earlier in my life, I get solace in the thought that the only way I could have arrived where I am is through a life time of experience. Live and learn.
(reprinted from Linghamans Log ....my blog on Word Press)