The next day I got it out and smeared some on my foreskin. The directions said to wait two hours before doing the piercing and by an hour my foreskin was completely numb, there was no feeling at all even when I pinched it with my finger nails. So all was ready.
I thoroughly wet the needle of the pendent (it is a gold compound) to make sure it was sterile though I am not entirely sure but enough that there shouldn’t be any infection.
I have Hypospadias which means that my urethral opening is somewhere other than the center of my glans. In my case it is at the bottom of the glans where it meets my penile shaft. In extreme cases the opening can be as far back as the area where the penis and scrotum meet. Sometimes there is also curvature of the penis and can be severe requiring repair. If done early not beyond the second year these things can be repaired.
Most men with this condition have troublewith urination. Spraying and inability to “aim” are the most prevalent. So as with me sitting to pee is the preferred way to keep the urine where it issupposed to go. There are other problems that can show up especially with rections and copulation.
Since the above images are not overly clear as to the looks of my penis I will add some that show more detail.
Meanwhile back to the piercing. For some reason I never completed the it. I’m not sure just why since I really wanted to wear that pendant hanging off the end of my penis. In any case I stopped trying to stick the needle through the skin. It did stick a little but didn’t go far into the skin. Actually when I’d tried without the numbing cream I managed toget further. Someday I’ll try again.
The reason(s) I want to do this is for esthetic and physical reasons. I like the look of the earring attached (odd since I think nipple rings on a man look ridiculous) and the little bit of weight and movement when I walk or move is a constant reminder that I have a penis hangingvthere. That is not the case without the earring.
The pendant is much heavier and longer than the earrings and to have it piercing me so that it won’t come off like the earrings when I move excites me no end.
This obsession haunts me all the time. Even when my wife is home it still wanders around in the back of my mind never far from the surface. Unfortunately my wife has no truck with anything the least bit kinky. Another reason for not doing what I really want to relates to my upbringing. My mother was an only child of strict no sex talk parents. They came from a conservative British background where certain things weren’t talked about much less acknowledged, sex being the most obvious.
My mother was never told by her mother anything about sex not even about a woman’s period. And boys?, nothing. Mom had no idea what fucking (much less the term) was. As nearly as I can tell she didn’t even know how babies came about or that sex could be fun.
So in that environment I learned that anything between my legs was “dirty” whatever that meant. Which was odd since I could touch that part of me to wash. Otherwise my penis and balls were totally off limits. “Dirty” was never explained or defined. Dirty to me meant soil, dust or whatever on my hands therefore needed to be washed. Oh, well.
The Images make it clear I have removed all hair around my pubis and that too is a product of my early upbringing. I never saw a grown woman’s or man’s “private parts”, so didn’t know that hair would eventually grow in the pubic area. I’ve always found that to be undesirable on myself and on my partner, whoever that might have been.
There is a second reason. Cleanliness. With the Hypospadias I always manage to pee all over my scrotum and it is much easier to clean up if there is no hair to contend with. A small, inconsequential reason but it’ll do.
If I can ever get over my reluctance to doing what I want I will get my foreskin pierced and a ring put in. I want one that is permanent, welded or in some way fixed so it can’t be removed without being destroyed. Unfortunately, I would be terribly embarrassed to have someone see and touch my penis to do something like that. As much as I understand, logically, there is nothing to be embarrassed about and that these things are done routinely, deep down I am still that little boy, embarrassed about not having a penis that looks and works like a “normal” one. And again there is my wife’s problems to deal with.
And of course I’m nearly eighty years old.
There are some people coming to the house across the street to do something about some furnature and stuff. Somehow they are supposed to either sell it or give it to the Salvation Army and I have to wait because I have the key to the house as I’m looking after it until the closing. I wish they’d get here so I can get naked and take some pictures of my penis is you can see what hypospadias looks like and where I want a ring to be inserted.
I would like to have a leash attached to that ring with a padlock which someone else had under her control.The thought of being lead around by my penis turns me on especially because I’d have no control over when or where. Even if I was clothed the leash would naturally have to go through the fly of whatever pants I was allowed to wear.There would be no way my penis wouldn’t show. In situations at home or at selected friends houses I would be, naturally, naked. I’d be at the mercy of anyone my owner/partner allowed to lead me around.
I guess I’ve gone over ground I covered earlier but this obsession fills me to overflowing. I found asite on the internet, today, that has all things necessary for piercings, more toys than can be counted. Not only are there various things to put into a pierced body part but all the tools required to do so. There is even a special clamp to hold ones foreskin to hold it for piercing and they are not terribly expensive. I may get one and try again. There are rings also available from the same site.
Just got back from visiting the DW and having dinner at our favorite restaurant. Now it is time to take some pictures of my penis. Some from the side, from the front and then a look at the pee opening and the foreskin at the top of the glans.
Well of all the pictures I just took only one of them is acceptable so here it is. Later I’ll take more and try to get better focus.
This one is holding my penis up by the foreskin. You can see there is no skin under the glans.
I want to get a picture whenI have a hardon but lately that has been a bit difficult; I’ve been jacking off too often.
Another view of my penis being held up by the foreskin. You can just see where the pee hole is to the right and just below the shadow where the light spot is at the bottom of the glans.
Also in the above image one can see where I want the ring to pierce me. Actually the spot is under where my thumb and forefinger are holding the skin.
As an aside I’m hoping my wife predeceases me so she will never have to see this journal or ever even find out about it. I wish she could be liberal and supportive enough to take these pictures for me but that is not likely to come about. I do intend to keep this journal no matter whether or how often I add to it.
When I jack off it I, usually while looking at porno movies on the internet, mostly on a site called silent-screams. Every day they add videos, some long and some short. If it has been long enough between viewings or the subject is particularly erotic I stroke myself lightly and if sufficiently arousing eventually start pumping vigorously until I finally orgasm. At that time my penis stiffens up even more until rock solid but getting a picture of it is difficult. Again I wish I had someone available to snap it before it subsides. Besides I get off when someone watches me.
I decided to try something. I am going to set up my video camera alongside my bed on the tripod, turn on all the lights in the room and try to jack off so I can get a good view of my playing with myself and hope to get a good shot of my after orgasm hardon. So here we go.
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