Medical science has made it possible to go on living, even though my body is ready to go. I had a silent heart attack about 25 years ago, which caused a stroke in 1989. I recovered from the stroke for the most part, with only minor short memory problems and occasional inability to recall a word. Simple words, that everybody knows. Comes back after a few seconds. This left me with depression, crying jags for no reason, Prozac then Zoloft for life. Pile Diabetes Type II on top and you have a perfect recipe for ED. The condition feared by men and women alike. So here I was, unable to have intercourse with my life companion. I tried Viagara. It didn't work well enough. I tried a vacuum pump. It pumped me up, but blood leaked out and I was limp within five minutes. Useless.
My wife has never been overtly sexual. She always enjoyed being fucked and orgasmed every time. Same with oral sex or manual stimulation. She says she can't remember a time when she didn't climax with me. And she has never had another man have contact with her pussy in her life. She was a virgin when I married her. I could probably count the number of times she initiated sex on two hands. I relate these intimate details so the reader will better understand my ten sexless years. In 49 years of marriage, she never sucked my cock without me urging. She just didn't like to do it. She was never any good at it, so I just gave it up.
For ten years, the only sexual pleasures I had was masturbation when I needed it, and giving her an orgasm when I thought she would enjoy it. And she always did.
Last year, I started getting interested in porn. This led me to discover an adults only forum about sex. About the same time, I sat her down and had a frank discussion about quality of life issues relating to sex. I realized that without sex, the negatives in my life outnumbered the positives. We decided to become active again, and she agreed to try to work with me. Things are better now, but I now have had only one real fuck in eleven years. We're still working on it.
I like to look at women of all ages. Young women in particular stimulate me. Professional porn to my mind is sexless. Going through the motions.
I love women. For most of my life, beautiful and even pretty women intimidated me. I'm told that's probably due to growing up without a mother.
Now I find I'm able to talk freely with women through the keyboard. I get a lot of pleasure out of flirting on these forums.
If you just want to talk/chat, clean or raunchy, look me up. No guarantees, but if I like you from the start, I'm here for you. OK